PLEASE tell me this is all April Fool's....a really LONG one....
I can't think of what I did to piss God off, but man, I think I did....
First of all, I'm really glad you don't have cancer Shu. I don't know what I would do if you did, that would break my heart. :o *hugs*
So....
I finally called my counsoler. We're trying to see if it's worth it to change host families. I know I only have a month left, but I'll never get this month BACK if they make it suck; I'm only here at this time, doing this, once.
And that stupid bath Nazi's not going to ruin it for me....
The dad is so nice, and hilarious when he got drunk.....but no one hast time to talk with me....save grandma, adn she won't let ME talk....
Their grandpa is in the hospital. :o Please pray for him, if you can....never met him, but that must be hard on them... (they aren't bad people, they're just too busy to host me, I think.)
This relates to another problem of mine.
My listening is great, but my speech in Japanese (and in English) is just dying. That's because I just finished Spring Break, which is two weeks of no school and no one talks to me at home. Sure, I did things, but most of it was with foreigners and I was oddly tired or whatever during the rest. But you have to speak every day to make it work and they just don't have time, even when they are home....
My speech was so bad today that my dance teacher couldn't stop laughing. XD I'm not offended, I TOLD her it was bad....hey, I rather that then the 'Oh no, it's fine!' ANY DAY...
And my last speech at the r meeting.....I was so jumbled that I had to just smile and say, 'You know what? They're gonna put this in the newsletter. I think it's best that you read it instead.' ....and they let me get away with it! LMAO!!
But I have a HUGE speech coming up.......gotta write that....and TALK!
In other news, I'm quitting volleyball in a week.
I practice and practice, but I still can't play games. I have no goal there, and I can't do it when I come back, so I figure it's wasting my time....
While chorus, on the other hand, looks really fun and it's something I WILL do when I get back. Plus, it helps my Japanese.
But I love everyone in volleyball....so it's going to hurt to tell them I won't be coming back after next Friday....
However, my homeroom teacher helped me chose; she reminded me that even if I quit volleyball, the people in volleyball are still my frineds, and I won't lose them because I'm in a new club. Those things can seperate.
I hate that I'm quitting something, but in the long run, it makes more sense.
Even if it did make me cry three times in a bathroom in the past 24 hours. o.O;;
And then there's school.
New year, new class. I have Smiling Girl and Satoko in there, same teacher.....that'S it. (why can't she be like Yukari and have the same homeroom? I LOVED that class!)
Even worse, I'm sitting next to someone who's half Japanese, who I pissed off becasue I used that to start a conversation.....apparently she's very sensitive about being different....o.O;;
And I'm in the farthest corner, in the waaay back.....in this area of friends from their first year who aren't interested in having me join. Shit.
And Satoko has a friend in the class.....but they kept dissappearing. o.O;;
I hope things get better....because I don't think I can survive with all this quiet-ness.....I would just talk anyway, but I don7t want to piss them off.....but I now notice that I talk to myself a lot....o.O;;
I even told my teacher that I hated my class....it was funny because she wasn't expecting such a strong reaction....
Then I cried when I told her and some people were in the room! So embarassing! >o<;
But the day got worse...
I went to my dance lesson, and the first thing my teacher does is unzip her jacket, shows me she's got a machine hooked to her chest and tells me she's having her heard tested...why, you ask? Well...
1 - We're really close and she thought I should know
2 - She can't wear an obi (sash) becasue of it and she needed to explain that.
So yeah, the lesson went fine. Everything was fine. But I feel sick.
I love my teacher.....if something happens to her....especially after I leave....
Not helping is the fact that my Japanese teacher is being tested for cancer...
Is there an adult frined of mine out there NOT dying or sick? Oh wait, my second host mom's okay....she better STAY that way, damnit! :_:
So please pray for them, if you can...
I'm done whining.
I love you all. Stay safe!
First of all, I'm really glad you don't have cancer Shu. I don't know what I would do if you did, that would break my heart. :o *hugs*
So....
I finally called my counsoler. We're trying to see if it's worth it to change host families. I know I only have a month left, but I'll never get this month BACK if they make it suck; I'm only here at this time, doing this, once.
And that stupid bath Nazi's not going to ruin it for me....
The dad is so nice, and hilarious when he got drunk.....but no one hast time to talk with me....save grandma, adn she won't let ME talk....
Their grandpa is in the hospital. :o Please pray for him, if you can....never met him, but that must be hard on them... (they aren't bad people, they're just too busy to host me, I think.)
This relates to another problem of mine.
My listening is great, but my speech in Japanese (and in English) is just dying. That's because I just finished Spring Break, which is two weeks of no school and no one talks to me at home. Sure, I did things, but most of it was with foreigners and I was oddly tired or whatever during the rest. But you have to speak every day to make it work and they just don't have time, even when they are home....
My speech was so bad today that my dance teacher couldn't stop laughing. XD I'm not offended, I TOLD her it was bad....hey, I rather that then the 'Oh no, it's fine!' ANY DAY...
And my last speech at the r meeting.....I was so jumbled that I had to just smile and say, 'You know what? They're gonna put this in the newsletter. I think it's best that you read it instead.' ....and they let me get away with it! LMAO!!
But I have a HUGE speech coming up.......gotta write that....and TALK!
In other news, I'm quitting volleyball in a week.
I practice and practice, but I still can't play games. I have no goal there, and I can't do it when I come back, so I figure it's wasting my time....
While chorus, on the other hand, looks really fun and it's something I WILL do when I get back. Plus, it helps my Japanese.
But I love everyone in volleyball....so it's going to hurt to tell them I won't be coming back after next Friday....
However, my homeroom teacher helped me chose; she reminded me that even if I quit volleyball, the people in volleyball are still my frineds, and I won't lose them because I'm in a new club. Those things can seperate.
I hate that I'm quitting something, but in the long run, it makes more sense.
Even if it did make me cry three times in a bathroom in the past 24 hours. o.O;;
And then there's school.
New year, new class. I have Smiling Girl and Satoko in there, same teacher.....that'S it. (why can't she be like Yukari and have the same homeroom? I LOVED that class!)
Even worse, I'm sitting next to someone who's half Japanese, who I pissed off becasue I used that to start a conversation.....apparently she's very sensitive about being different....o.O;;
And I'm in the farthest corner, in the waaay back.....in this area of friends from their first year who aren't interested in having me join. Shit.
And Satoko has a friend in the class.....but they kept dissappearing. o.O;;
I hope things get better....because I don't think I can survive with all this quiet-ness.....I would just talk anyway, but I don7t want to piss them off.....but I now notice that I talk to myself a lot....o.O;;
I even told my teacher that I hated my class....it was funny because she wasn't expecting such a strong reaction....
Then I cried when I told her and some people were in the room! So embarassing! >o<;
But the day got worse...
I went to my dance lesson, and the first thing my teacher does is unzip her jacket, shows me she's got a machine hooked to her chest and tells me she's having her heard tested...why, you ask? Well...
1 - We're really close and she thought I should know
2 - She can't wear an obi (sash) becasue of it and she needed to explain that.
So yeah, the lesson went fine. Everything was fine. But I feel sick.
I love my teacher.....if something happens to her....especially after I leave....
Not helping is the fact that my Japanese teacher is being tested for cancer...
Is there an adult frined of mine out there NOT dying or sick? Oh wait, my second host mom's okay....she better STAY that way, damnit! :_:
So please pray for them, if you can...
I'm done whining.
I love you all. Stay safe!