A place i have perhaps seen in my dreams
I had a dream, well it's true. It was a perfect idea for a movie, i mean at least the exciting part. If I were a person making a movie then i would need a story to go along with it... I may type it up sometime and put it on my website...
I bought a real journal in which i write anything and everything that might give away who i am which i don't want to do on the internet. I honestly try to keep it neat but maybe it's a good thing that nobody can read my writing. A sometimes overlooked (by me) aspect about diaries: There is nothing too stupid, too revealing about oneself. There is nothing you can't write in it, provided it's something true. If it occurs to you then it can be written down. If it's something you don't really want to tell anyone you *know* (ie, know in real life), then all the better -- now you have *someone* to tell.
Here's what i like about the wetlook type idea: I like the idea of no awkwardness, of throwing yourself in and getting right into it. I like the cleansing feel of water -- it soaks through you and cleans away all the sweat and makes you equal to everyone in terms of cleanliness. It makes you feel light and a calm slow-motion-ness under water. Then when you get out of the water, your clothes cling to you, and is very revealing, you can't hide. In away it's a bit, shall we say, erotic, even though i'm not sure it's exactly the right term. Your clothes cling to your shape, your breasts, hips, butt, legs. The warm sun is beating down on you again, you can feel the fabric on your skin. Fabric that you changed by immersing it in cool clear water.
To get one thing straight, i'm not thinking about this 24/7, just whenever i think of it i always want to go update my journal :) i'll try to put in more things that i would write in my journal instead of writing them in my illegible handwriting. If i ever get a computer in my room, i'll definitely be updating this journal more ... i always feel like writing more when i'm alone in my room.
I bought a real journal in which i write anything and everything that might give away who i am which i don't want to do on the internet. I honestly try to keep it neat but maybe it's a good thing that nobody can read my writing. A sometimes overlooked (by me) aspect about diaries: There is nothing too stupid, too revealing about oneself. There is nothing you can't write in it, provided it's something true. If it occurs to you then it can be written down. If it's something you don't really want to tell anyone you *know* (ie, know in real life), then all the better -- now you have *someone* to tell.
Here's what i like about the wetlook type idea: I like the idea of no awkwardness, of throwing yourself in and getting right into it. I like the cleansing feel of water -- it soaks through you and cleans away all the sweat and makes you equal to everyone in terms of cleanliness. It makes you feel light and a calm slow-motion-ness under water. Then when you get out of the water, your clothes cling to you, and is very revealing, you can't hide. In away it's a bit, shall we say, erotic, even though i'm not sure it's exactly the right term. Your clothes cling to your shape, your breasts, hips, butt, legs. The warm sun is beating down on you again, you can feel the fabric on your skin. Fabric that you changed by immersing it in cool clear water.
To get one thing straight, i'm not thinking about this 24/7, just whenever i think of it i always want to go update my journal :) i'll try to put in more things that i would write in my journal instead of writing them in my illegible handwriting. If i ever get a computer in my room, i'll definitely be updating this journal more ... i always feel like writing more when i'm alone in my room.