Excited for New Beginnings
You know when you're 10, and it's Christmas Eve, and you're sure you're never going to fall asleep b/c you're too excited for Santa to come? (Even though, at 10, you know Santa's not, like, physically real, but were given the whole "It's about the spirit of xmas" line by your parents?) And you do finally sleep, but you wake up like every hour on the hour, just waiting for it to be light enough to go wake your parents up so you can go downstairs and open presents?
Okay, well, I just had a night/morning like that. I have a first date tonight, in about 2 hours, and I tried to go to bed at 10:15 this morning - couldn't sleep. Cleaned up my room, tried to go back to bed, was able to sleep - til about 2 pm, when I woke up. Forced myself to go back to sleep - woke up at 3. Then 4, then 4:30 (my alarm is set for 5:30), when I finally decided to just get up, as I obviously wasn't going back to sleep anytime soon.
I can't remember the last time I was this excited about something new - I am really enjoying it. And for the first time in a long time, I'm not completely over-analyzing it, or trying to figure out the future, or do any of the "typically" me things, which is also very enjoyable. I'm just here, sitting in my room, looking forward to going out tonight with a guy I really want to get to know better.
And of course there's minor drama or complications, b/c it's my life, but I don't care. I will figure that stuff out later, when I need to. Right now I'm just .... happy. And excited.
And since most of my posts are about sad stuff, I wanted to change that as well. Yay! Happy Chito!!! :-D
Okay, well, I just had a night/morning like that. I have a first date tonight, in about 2 hours, and I tried to go to bed at 10:15 this morning - couldn't sleep. Cleaned up my room, tried to go back to bed, was able to sleep - til about 2 pm, when I woke up. Forced myself to go back to sleep - woke up at 3. Then 4, then 4:30 (my alarm is set for 5:30), when I finally decided to just get up, as I obviously wasn't going back to sleep anytime soon.
I can't remember the last time I was this excited about something new - I am really enjoying it. And for the first time in a long time, I'm not completely over-analyzing it, or trying to figure out the future, or do any of the "typically" me things, which is also very enjoyable. I'm just here, sitting in my room, looking forward to going out tonight with a guy I really want to get to know better.
And of course there's minor drama or complications, b/c it's my life, but I don't care. I will figure that stuff out later, when I need to. Right now I'm just .... happy. And excited.
And since most of my posts are about sad stuff, I wanted to change that as well. Yay! Happy Chito!!! :-D