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so i realized that some times i miss what life use to be like with all of my edina friends..... i miss them and i miss how simple life was back then, sure i was fucking crazy, but it was a lot easier than now..... i'm just trying to figure a lot of things out..... i wish i would have kept up with them, but at the same time they haven't tried to keep up with me..... i feel that a lot of it has to do with the fact that i won't be the puppet any more, i won't pretend to be someone that i'm not.... i am not always happy, i am not rich, i am not straight, i am not the same as the rest of them!!!!! i know that not all edina people are like the stereotypes, but with the freshmen on campus here at luther this semester it's hard not to remember that, mainly cause they all still hang out together..... i understand keeping friends is always good, but not branching out is just fucked up!!!! okies, i've had a bad day, i want to strangle nyline..... grrrr but oh well, it's ok i'll get over it......
matt and i are still crazy and having fun, his show is finally over, which is nice i thought that it would kill me in the end, but i'm doing ok, which is nice to know!!! however the next two shows will kill me, mainly cause they are the same weekend different times!!!!!!! i'm insane, but it's ok... allan and i are making it through, we have now found out that we can fight and be ok with each other.... he went with for my mom's surprise birthday party, it was great, she had no idea and was totally shocked!!! mike and i are great too!!!! i miss him on campus a lot, but i'm getting along, he's doing ok too, i love him to death and we've decided that we want to live together while he finishes undergrad work and i start grad school.... mainly cause i don't mind doing the dishes, teehee!!!
i'm happy with who i have become and glad that i'm not still pretending to be the edina person that i use to be
matt and i are still crazy and having fun, his show is finally over, which is nice i thought that it would kill me in the end, but i'm doing ok, which is nice to know!!! however the next two shows will kill me, mainly cause they are the same weekend different times!!!!!!! i'm insane, but it's ok... allan and i are making it through, we have now found out that we can fight and be ok with each other.... he went with for my mom's surprise birthday party, it was great, she had no idea and was totally shocked!!! mike and i are great too!!!! i miss him on campus a lot, but i'm getting along, he's doing ok too, i love him to death and we've decided that we want to live together while he finishes undergrad work and i start grad school.... mainly cause i don't mind doing the dishes, teehee!!!
i'm happy with who i have become and glad that i'm not still pretending to be the edina person that i use to be