Things take another turn?

[chisholm]

This is really not what I ever expected.. Yesterday Caitlin IM'ed me, and said she wanted to talk... well we have plans to talk today at 1ish, I dont know what im going to say, or what she is going to say, I dont know what to expect, or whether to hope or not hope. Im really worried, because I still do love her, and I dont know if I can tell her this, I dont want to scare her away, I found out she doesnt exactly have a B/F.. just someone she has been hanging with, and she told me she didnt love him, and they havent even kissed... she says she doesnt see him as her b/f but he does. I dont know what to expect, I dont know if she has feelings for me or not still... She did seem anxious to know if I was seeing anyone, which is a good sign, but nothing that promising... Im afraid she might say lets just be friends... and I would LOVE to be friends with her, but I allready tried... and I can't do it, its too painful... I want her back so bad, I wont lie... I would give anything to get her back, because I know ive learned a valuable lesson, and my mistakes wont repeat themselfs ever again, no matter with who... but I dont want anyone, as a matter of fact I wouldnt date anyone else except her because im going away to college, she is the only one I would date knowing im going away, because I love her, and i know that it would work on my side with her, and I trust only her, and i know it would work on her side too.. Shes the most amazing person I know, there is no one else I have EVER felt this strong about, there is no one I EVER would be willing to sacrifice so much for.

Im going to head in the shower, then going to meet her at shaws around 1'ish.. I hope the talk goes good, I dont want to just jump back in a relationship with her the least bit, but I really want to work on things from scratch again... shes such a wonderful person, shes nothing but perfect to me.

Feel free to leave a comment on what YOU would do

*Bill*