Darksider's Insanity
Last night i just fucking flipped out. I have no idea what the hell happened to me. I was in such a good mood and then i suddenly became utterly depressed and angry at myself. everything came back to me last night. All my happy memories, all my mistakes, and all my worst moments. am i loosing my last bits of sanity? It all started with a random memory about the day i first asked out someone special to me... speptember 7th 2002. i honestly dont know what promted this.then came the memories of my most precious moments with her.
What the hell is wrong with me? Should i really be this messed up by this whole situation? Or have i totally gone over the edge? do i feel this way because of i feel a loss of someone i truly love or is this a loss because i desperately need affection? feh, it might be both. Another thing that i lost is my creativity. i cant even begin to write my short stories. even the mere names of some of my characters are getting to me. I thought coming home to miami would make me happier, but all it's done is increase my level of depression. and here i am doing something that i loath to do for the sake of friendship, and to keep my promises to that friend i dearly love. have i gone nuts, is this somthing that happens when you are in love, am i just perfectly normal for a nineteen year old? i just wish i kne all the answers to make my life better, or at least a little hint.
Have i just been so wrong for the past four years? I hope not... i really dont like to think that the past four years have been a waste.
What the hell is wrong with me? Should i really be this messed up by this whole situation? Or have i totally gone over the edge? do i feel this way because of i feel a loss of someone i truly love or is this a loss because i desperately need affection? feh, it might be both. Another thing that i lost is my creativity. i cant even begin to write my short stories. even the mere names of some of my characters are getting to me. I thought coming home to miami would make me happier, but all it's done is increase my level of depression. and here i am doing something that i loath to do for the sake of friendship, and to keep my promises to that friend i dearly love. have i gone nuts, is this somthing that happens when you are in love, am i just perfectly normal for a nineteen year old? i just wish i kne all the answers to make my life better, or at least a little hint.
Have i just been so wrong for the past four years? I hope not... i really dont like to think that the past four years have been a waste.