I opted to sleep last night instead of panicking, which may have been an irresponsible decision, but helped me immeasurably after my two-and-a-half all-nighters, and furthermore yielded wonderful, vivid dreams about fighting a dragon with the help of a wizard and a motley cast of other characters (a flame-eyed ferryman with his hat pulled down low ( Read more... )

More weird dreams: some good, some bad. I know this is basically all I ever write about now, but somehow it seems to convey more about how I am than any list of mundane details from my life, and anyway I'm growing increasingly secretive about those details. I think it's because I've been going through periods of authentic anxiety about what I'm ( Read more... )

Old habits are resurfacing: oversleeping as avoidance of the waking world. I set alarms early every morning, but I'm never even conscious of turning them off. My dreams have become haunting and miserable: being trapped in burning barns. Being sent away on a trip without any of the things I need with me. Annie's mother tried to help me in one of ( Read more... )

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I had a dream this morning that I had a tiny pet piglet the size of the last joint on my thumb. She got along well with my rabbit, but then an enormous hog with hoary bristles (think one of the inoshishi from Mononoke Hime) wandered into the yard and I ran to collect her from the dead leaves she had been rooting under because I thought he might eat ( Read more... )

Last night I left my computer and my books at home and surrendered my life to sleep in Drew's apartment (at the scandalously early hour of 10pm). I didn't wake up until 9:20 this morning. In the meantime, I dreamt strange and wonderful dreams about a beautiful, ancient library with blue-green waterlight coming through the dusty windows and ( Read more... )

Written yesterday in class: Everybody's sanity seems to be hanging by a thread today. My Human Rights / Political Violence professor is reverting to his native French. He says he can't speak English anymore. I saw him creeping away from WLH as I walked to class, but he came back eventually. Everyone seems to be a mess. What is up with the world? ( Read more... )

I had a beautiful dream this morning about walking on New York rooftops, which in the dream were like the ground level of quite a new city all in the sky. Later there was a very pretty mermaid whose tail I spotted in the water from the beam on which I was sitting (a la Construction Workers Lunching on a Crossbeam). I climbed down, splashed my hand ( Read more... )

I dreamt something strange about big, frightening giants last night (odd, because last night's pillow talk involved midgets, as I recall). I made myself a kimchee, spinach, and feta omelette for brunch. It was delicious. Brunch has always been my favorite meal and now I get to eat it every day: yet another reason I am pleased to be living off- ( Read more... )

Sammy the betta fish is drifting somnolently around his bowl. I feel droopy. Yesterday was a busy, full, wonderful day: I shopped one class I'll be quite content to drop and two seminars that left me with butterflies in my stomach, but more on that sometime later. I did a shocking amount of laundry. I caught up with a dear friend who will soon be ( Read more... )