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well since yall want me to let out my feelings here i go.
i hate living wit my father i can almost say i hate him. i know thats mean to say but its how i feel. nothing i do or say is ever good for him. its always his way or i have to do what he says when he says it. its like how man i posed to respect the man who cheats on my mom i do have respect for him jus not that much. is my be ok wit it but im not i hate it. i wont tell him either cause if i do i will end up in jail cause i will hit him. i dont want to but it might jus happen. i dont even talk to him anymore i refuse to. he always told me if u dont have anything nice to say dont say it at all so i dont say anything. he really the man reason y i smoke. i get so mad its the only thing that can calm me down. then it makes me mad when my mom goes along wit everything he says. my house is like a lifetime movie i jus hope i have a happy ending. every since ive started argueing wit my dad more ive been drinkin more and im sorry to say but smoking more. i know some of yall dont agree wit that but i cant help it anymore. im slowing down now tho its been a week since ive did either.the only thing thats even been helpin me jus alittle is my brother-in-law. if it wasnt for him i would be like a super pot head right now. yea he smokes weed but he has helped me so much by jus sittin there talkin to me about everything so i can let out my feelings in words. i jus dont know who i am anymore. i thought i knew myself but i dont anymore. this past could months ive jus died. im not as happy as i used to be. one day ill find me
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i hate living wit my father i can almost say i hate him. i know thats mean to say but its how i feel. nothing i do or say is ever good for him. its always his way or i have to do what he says when he says it. its like how man i posed to respect the man who cheats on my mom i do have respect for him jus not that much. is my be ok wit it but im not i hate it. i wont tell him either cause if i do i will end up in jail cause i will hit him. i dont want to but it might jus happen. i dont even talk to him anymore i refuse to. he always told me if u dont have anything nice to say dont say it at all so i dont say anything. he really the man reason y i smoke. i get so mad its the only thing that can calm me down. then it makes me mad when my mom goes along wit everything he says. my house is like a lifetime movie i jus hope i have a happy ending. every since ive started argueing wit my dad more ive been drinkin more and im sorry to say but smoking more. i know some of yall dont agree wit that but i cant help it anymore. im slowing down now tho its been a week since ive did either.the only thing thats even been helpin me jus alittle is my brother-in-law. if it wasnt for him i would be like a super pot head right now. yea he smokes weed but he has helped me so much by jus sittin there talkin to me about everything so i can let out my feelings in words. i jus dont know who i am anymore. i thought i knew myself but i dont anymore. this past could months ive jus died. im not as happy as i used to be. one day ill find me
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