More Musings on the Shadow
So I've been doing a bit of tarot card fiddling in trying to get any sense of who the Shadow is (yes, that is what I will call him for now, its much shorter than "that god who is hanging around me but hasn't stepped forward yet"). A few consistencies have cropped up, all here are encouraged to give your own take on what this might mean. :-)
For one thing, there are no female figures on any cards I've drawn. All male. Which may indeed be merely a coincidence as I've never actually counted how many cards have male figures as compared to female. But then again, I do seem to play better with the male deities, the goddesses either want nothing to do with me or don't mind me on occasion and at a distance. I've always been fine with this since I find gods easier to connect with anyway.
Of the minor arcana cards I've drawn (I have the two split into separate piles for this endeavor, do not question why it was merely in my head to do so) all have been swords. Last night three different sword cards literally fell into my lap at the same time out of a well shuffled deck. I have this feeling that the actual individual cards don't matter so much as the suit itself. Though what that could be implying I'm not exactly sure.
As for the major arcana cards, last night I ended up holding both The Emperor and The Hermit (I will on occasion just keep shuffling until something falls out, that way its much more random; sometimes I'll end up with more than one card on my hands). I picked The Moon on a previous reading, but that may or may not be speaking of who in particular the Shadow is, perhaps more on the state of life I get to look forward to for the immediate future.
I think this points to something, but I shall bite my tongue for the moment and see what opinions other people hold. The Shadow is being quiet either way although now I am finally sensing him there (always the last to know). I think this is amusing to him, taking his cue from Hermes and having some fun with me first. :-(
For one thing, there are no female figures on any cards I've drawn. All male. Which may indeed be merely a coincidence as I've never actually counted how many cards have male figures as compared to female. But then again, I do seem to play better with the male deities, the goddesses either want nothing to do with me or don't mind me on occasion and at a distance. I've always been fine with this since I find gods easier to connect with anyway.
Of the minor arcana cards I've drawn (I have the two split into separate piles for this endeavor, do not question why it was merely in my head to do so) all have been swords. Last night three different sword cards literally fell into my lap at the same time out of a well shuffled deck. I have this feeling that the actual individual cards don't matter so much as the suit itself. Though what that could be implying I'm not exactly sure.
As for the major arcana cards, last night I ended up holding both The Emperor and The Hermit (I will on occasion just keep shuffling until something falls out, that way its much more random; sometimes I'll end up with more than one card on my hands). I picked The Moon on a previous reading, but that may or may not be speaking of who in particular the Shadow is, perhaps more on the state of life I get to look forward to for the immediate future.
I think this points to something, but I shall bite my tongue for the moment and see what opinions other people hold. The Shadow is being quiet either way although now I am finally sensing him there (always the last to know). I think this is amusing to him, taking his cue from Hermes and having some fun with me first. :-(