Sleep Issues
Its been an icky last couple of weeks. I haven't had much energy to post or even do a lot of commenting.
Its mostly been sleep. That's not been going well, I seem to have had a bought of insomnia (again, in addition to the normal problems). When I got tired of going to bed and lying there wide awake for hours on end, we went out and got me some over the counter sleeping pills, because nothing pisses me off more than not being able to sleep when I know I'm fucking tired and that additional stress and anger doesn't help anything. I have some store brand Nyquil equivalent (pill form only, I can not drink that shit, I don't care if it was the elixir of eternal youth, I don't think I could force myself to swallow a single drop) and a bottle of Tylenol PM; the Nyquil works faster but takes over twelve hours to work out of my system, and while I was able to get to sleep it wasn't particularly wonderful sleep, the kind of sleep that more feels like lost time than like you got any actual rest.
Things were continuing after I got the medication, and that worried me a little that I was becoming dependant on it. I know I hadn't been taking it all that long, but I can be insanely habitual when it comes to my sleep routine, once I get used to things being a certain way I need them to be that way; hell, if I sleep opposite Renee too much during the week, when she's back on the weekend I sometimes have a hard time with her being there again. The only time I lived on sleeping pills was when this shit first reared its head, when I was sixteen (took pills until I was nineteen) and that was mostly because we thought we were dealing with insomnia and I needed to go to school and it was strongly interfereing with that; I didn't get a chance until much later to really observe how insane my sleeping habits became after this, so I can't say with any degree of certainty if I was overly dependant on those pills or how quickly it might have happened. But from what I do know of myself now, I wouldn't be too surprised, and that's also not something that I want to happen.
But it seems the problem may have finally cleared up, the last couple days I've been sleeping okay without any drugs. So, maybe this has passed. *knocks on wood, throws salt over shoulder, turns in a circle three times*
I'm already feeling a lot better than I have been. Will be nice to be able to focus on something other than how I can't sleep again.
Its mostly been sleep. That's not been going well, I seem to have had a bought of insomnia (again, in addition to the normal problems). When I got tired of going to bed and lying there wide awake for hours on end, we went out and got me some over the counter sleeping pills, because nothing pisses me off more than not being able to sleep when I know I'm fucking tired and that additional stress and anger doesn't help anything. I have some store brand Nyquil equivalent (pill form only, I can not drink that shit, I don't care if it was the elixir of eternal youth, I don't think I could force myself to swallow a single drop) and a bottle of Tylenol PM; the Nyquil works faster but takes over twelve hours to work out of my system, and while I was able to get to sleep it wasn't particularly wonderful sleep, the kind of sleep that more feels like lost time than like you got any actual rest.
Things were continuing after I got the medication, and that worried me a little that I was becoming dependant on it. I know I hadn't been taking it all that long, but I can be insanely habitual when it comes to my sleep routine, once I get used to things being a certain way I need them to be that way; hell, if I sleep opposite Renee too much during the week, when she's back on the weekend I sometimes have a hard time with her being there again. The only time I lived on sleeping pills was when this shit first reared its head, when I was sixteen (took pills until I was nineteen) and that was mostly because we thought we were dealing with insomnia and I needed to go to school and it was strongly interfereing with that; I didn't get a chance until much later to really observe how insane my sleeping habits became after this, so I can't say with any degree of certainty if I was overly dependant on those pills or how quickly it might have happened. But from what I do know of myself now, I wouldn't be too surprised, and that's also not something that I want to happen.
But it seems the problem may have finally cleared up, the last couple days I've been sleeping okay without any drugs. So, maybe this has passed. *knocks on wood, throws salt over shoulder, turns in a circle three times*
I'm already feeling a lot better than I have been. Will be nice to be able to focus on something other than how I can't sleep again.