church, god, life, me, inconsistencies, old problems
what is it that makes me so MAD? is it a good and healthy anger over things that should be changed? or just a selfish attempt and frustration to make things go as i think they should??
why do I not like myself? why am I so persistent is trying to understand things? do I think that I can fix things? is Life not an adventure to be lived and pursued? i fear i view it as a problem to be solved...i foolishly view it as some factor out-of-check in my selfish little universe that I call "my" life. aggghhh!
unfortunately, i am learning that neutrality is NOT an option. i just want peace, neutrality; but, it's not to be had. Life's structure doesn't allow for it. aggh!
why do I not like myself? why am I so persistent is trying to understand things? do I think that I can fix things? is Life not an adventure to be lived and pursued? i fear i view it as a problem to be solved...i foolishly view it as some factor out-of-check in my selfish little universe that I call "my" life. aggghhh!
unfortunately, i am learning that neutrality is NOT an option. i just want peace, neutrality; but, it's not to be had. Life's structure doesn't allow for it. aggh!