maybe i'm a coward
How is it that I am too terrified to write or vocalize how I feel to the person who has always been in my corner but I can and have spent hours upon hours of writing and talking about how I feel about people who will never see me the way I want them to?
How is it that people who claim to be my friend don't reach out to holla for anything but I'm getting birthday messages from the person who decided more than 10 years ago that she couldn't be my friend because I'm queer? WTF does that say about the state of friendship in my life if the only person who is checking for me is someone who abandoned me?!
Sometimes, I just want to quit trying.
c:
How is it that people who claim to be my friend don't reach out to holla for anything but I'm getting birthday messages from the person who decided more than 10 years ago that she couldn't be my friend because I'm queer? WTF does that say about the state of friendship in my life if the only person who is checking for me is someone who abandoned me?!
Sometimes, I just want to quit trying.
c: