Last of 2009, The year of Love fuck ups and developing new strong friendships
“There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn’t the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.”
I have so many changes to make this new year. This is going to be my year of CHANGE= 2010. Not Obama lol.
Resolutions: ( I don't think I have ever actually made a list of them)
1) Quit smoking for good. My lungs are starting to feel weaker and I dont like it. I'm done with the cancer sticks.
2) *** GAIN BACK MY CONFIDENCE?*** This is the biggest goal for me, i feel like it is going to change my life the most.
So, I am going to love myself again by:
---Losing ~10-15 lbs by working out and eating right and hopefully a new healthy routine will make my period regular.
---Also, new clothes, take care of myself, look my very best everyday. FEEL SEXY AND POWERFUL. FEEL BEAUTIFUL AGAIN!
3) Decrease the alcohol consumption. I am much more emotionally stable this year to be able to deal with my problems sober. I need to explore my world, and find new things that make me happy; not BOOZE.
4) Find a hobby, and use it to release stress/ therapeutically. I actually like playing the guitar. That would be awesome if i could make that my pastime.
5) This has been a goal for a while: find a job during school and get a car this year!!!
These 5 things will be amazing for my life. I want to be a whole new person! I want ppl to envy my body/ mind and soul and aspire to be like me. most importantly, I want to be me and not want to be like other ppl and compare myself. Who cares if Mike doesnt think i am pretty? As long as you know that you are and lots of other fine gentle men do so then I will be happy.
I really hope that in 2010 I find a wonderful man that sweeps me off my feet. I think I am finally ready to give my all to someone else with out thinking of past assholes. I hope that I do, i really do.....
Happy new year, Good bye 2009, I learned a lot from you, but it was quite a depressing year for me.
I hope that 2010 is the year of love for all my friends and family. They are all lovely ppl and they deserve to be happy.
I have so many changes to make this new year. This is going to be my year of CHANGE= 2010. Not Obama lol.
Resolutions: ( I don't think I have ever actually made a list of them)
1) Quit smoking for good. My lungs are starting to feel weaker and I dont like it. I'm done with the cancer sticks.
2) *** GAIN BACK MY CONFIDENCE?*** This is the biggest goal for me, i feel like it is going to change my life the most.
So, I am going to love myself again by:
---Losing ~10-15 lbs by working out and eating right and hopefully a new healthy routine will make my period regular.
---Also, new clothes, take care of myself, look my very best everyday. FEEL SEXY AND POWERFUL. FEEL BEAUTIFUL AGAIN!
3) Decrease the alcohol consumption. I am much more emotionally stable this year to be able to deal with my problems sober. I need to explore my world, and find new things that make me happy; not BOOZE.
4) Find a hobby, and use it to release stress/ therapeutically. I actually like playing the guitar. That would be awesome if i could make that my pastime.
5) This has been a goal for a while: find a job during school and get a car this year!!!
These 5 things will be amazing for my life. I want to be a whole new person! I want ppl to envy my body/ mind and soul and aspire to be like me. most importantly, I want to be me and not want to be like other ppl and compare myself. Who cares if Mike doesnt think i am pretty? As long as you know that you are and lots of other fine gentle men do so then I will be happy.
I really hope that in 2010 I find a wonderful man that sweeps me off my feet. I think I am finally ready to give my all to someone else with out thinking of past assholes. I hope that I do, i really do.....
Happy new year, Good bye 2009, I learned a lot from you, but it was quite a depressing year for me.
I hope that 2010 is the year of love for all my friends and family. They are all lovely ppl and they deserve to be happy.