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Waking up is such a letdown here. I had the best dream that I was home downtown with Mike and all my friends, just chillin like we do in Summer :) and I wake up and I'm like where am I? It doesn't matter, I'm not home. So I'm stuck in this continent for a while longer. I'm really homesick... it's the worst feeling. I feel like I'm missing a lot.. I mean I know it's Newburyport and nothing happens just like any other town, but in 5 months a lot can change and people don't really notice it until they look back on it. I'm afraid I'll come back and be like hey Mike Ben wanna hang out? And they'll be like um we arent friends anymore.... ehh ok thats not gonna happen. but still...
So i went to a frigging bullfight yesterday. it wasnt as bad as i thought, i was kinda numb the whole time... its a little gory, and i dont see any art in it at all... its supposed to honor the bull, by sticking knives in it? i dont understand.. im not going back.
and today im going to some pool with a bunch of people... adults mostly. honestly i dont want to go.. i dont want to socialize at all; ive become really reserved since i got here. im trying not to be rude and to force myself to say yes if someone asks to hang out, but all i want is to stay home and just... i duno be by myself. anyway i have to go. hope you guys have fun in the snow...
So i went to a frigging bullfight yesterday. it wasnt as bad as i thought, i was kinda numb the whole time... its a little gory, and i dont see any art in it at all... its supposed to honor the bull, by sticking knives in it? i dont understand.. im not going back.
and today im going to some pool with a bunch of people... adults mostly. honestly i dont want to go.. i dont want to socialize at all; ive become really reserved since i got here. im trying not to be rude and to force myself to say yes if someone asks to hang out, but all i want is to stay home and just... i duno be by myself. anyway i have to go. hope you guys have fun in the snow...