Stains & Scars | A Remus/Lily Mix
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01) Beast For Thee | Bonnie "Prince" Billy
Why are you kind to me
You could so easily
Take me in your arms and see
A donkey
A beast for thee [...]
And at home on Wednesday morn
Astride my horny horde
You’ll be in glory born
And I will a beast for thee
"Um, hi."
"Oh. Well. Hullo...."
"..."
"Would you like to sit here?"
"Is anyone...?"
"Well..."
"... I can leave, no problem, I'm, I'm sorry..."
"No! I mean: no. Sit. Please. There's no one here."
"Oh, thanks. Thank you."
"Yes. Well. You're quite welcome."
"I'm. I'm Lily. Lily Evans."
"Well, hullo. I'm Remus."
"Oh! Lovely! I'm so very sorry for asking this, because you must get it all the time, but: Do you have a twin?"
"Well. No. No, actually. I'm... I'm an only child."
"Hm. That must be lonely."
"Yes. Yes, it is lonely, now... now that I think about it."
"Well, don't."
"Don't what?"
"Think about it."
"Oh. Well. Yes. Thank you. Lily. Thank you, Lily."
"You're very welcome, Remus."
02) The Kind | Shearwater
Baby, hands in your lap
You touch your wounds so much they'll never heal [...]
Baby, I love your laugh
And everything you say is dire and dear
But "Cut the crap, you're still alive"
It's just the kind of thing you really need
"Let me guess: Attack of the edge of the dresser again?"
"Hm? Oh, yes. I'm quite afraid, yes. Nasty bugger that one is."
"You know If you pick at it like that, it will never heal."
"Well, yes, I know that."
"Do you?"
"Sure. I know lots of things."
"Oh really?"
"Yes."
"Regale me."
"I know that you're driving me utterly nutters, Lily Evans. And I know that we're supposed to be studying."
"Oh, poo. Remus, you're driving me nutters with all this academic nonsense."
"Really now?"
"It's true. Hey! I know! Let's go fill some water balloons!"
"Wa... water balloons? But! What for!?"
"I don't know. Throw them at people! Oh come on! It will be fun! It's so very hot outside, Remus. People'll like it!"
"But!'
"Let's go!"
"Water balloons! Really, now."
"We're going!"
"Alright, alright, let me get your books. Honestly! Of all things! Water balloons!"
03) Let There Be Light | Parkas
I was hanging around town with the crucifixion blues
Skinny as the driven nail, transparent as a saint
But the girl who saw right through me said, “The holy ghost you ain’t.” [...]
In this darkness tonight that no sun could shine through
Let there be light and let that light be you.
"Can I be honest with you, Remus?"
"Well, yes. I suppose so."
"You suppose?"
"Well, I mean, of course. Yes. Of course, Lily."
"I really hate your friend, James."
"Oh. Well."
"He's very arrogant isn't he?"
"Well..."
"And he's such a bully."
"I suppose he could be nicer..."
"Yes! He could. And he won't leave me alone!"
"Well, er, I suppose that's because he fancies you quite a bit."
"Oh! That's the worst part! Absolutely awful being fancied by such a git. Says a bit about me, doesn't it know, attracting that sort of attention."
"Oh, I don't suppose so."
"Well, if one thing counts for anything, I have you as a friend."
"Now, I'm afraid that's not saying much."
"You're ridiculous..."
"Yes, I know."
"...But you're good to me, you know that, Remus?"
"Well. No. I mean..."
"You're good to me."
"You're good for me."
"Hm? What did you say, Remus?"
"What? Oh, nothing. Studying outloud again, I'm afraid."
"Ha! Like I said: ridiculous."
"Well. Yes."
04) I Love The Rain The Most | Joe Purdy
I think you’ve had a little too much too drink
Let me help you with that
"I twoldyou didn't I, didnna I, Remus."
"Hm, yep you did, Lily."
"I sayd to ya, I say-ed, 'Remus, ol'chapppp... Ima gonna get us sum real butterbeer.' An' I did!"
"Yep. You's done right, Lily."
"Yersh I surrrrrrre did."
"Mmmm."
"Remus?"
"Yes, Lily?"
"Urrrr my favourite."
"Hrm. Well..."
"Am I's your's favourite?"
"Er, well..."
"I suppose I'm 'cause I got's us butterbeer and that's pretty..."
"Pretty pretty?"
"Erm, yesh, I suppose."
"Like you?"
"Like... me? Well. That's nice. Very nice of you, Remus."
"Mmm. I, er..."
"Oh, shite, dropped my bloody bottle again..."
"I got it--"
"--No, 's alright--"
"..."
"Yaknow Remus, picking up mebottle doesn't usually mean kissing my lips."
"Oh! Yes! So very sorry. I'm so terribly sorry, Lily."
"'S alright."
"I'm so very sorry."
"I said, it's alright. I. I didn't mind."
"I'm a little tipsy, Lily. Don't think I thought that through at all. I'm so very, very..."
"If you's apologize one more time, Remus Lupin, Ima gonna bludgeon you. Very hard."
"Oh. Right. Sorry."
"Urgh! You's ridiculous. Because of that, you's gotta kiss me again."
"Right, of course... I mean! What? You? Want? What?!"
"I'll do it then."
"Well. Alright."
05) Werewolf | Cat Power
Once I saw him in the moonlight, when the bats were a flying
I saw the werewolf, and the werewolf was crying
Cryin’ nobody knows, nobody knows, body knows
How I loved the man, as I teared off his clothes.
"So, why?"
"Oh, why what, Lily?"
"Why? Why didn't you tell me?"
"Oh really, Lily. How would I have told you, exactly?"
"Now, don't get angry, Remus..."
"Look. Look. I'm not angry. See? But, really now, Lily. How? How is one supposed to expose to their best friend that, I am. Well. What I am."
"Oh, Remus..."
"See? That? That makes me angry."
"What are you talking about?"
"Don't! Don't feel sorry for me."
"You know, Remus, it's okay to let yourself be vulnerable."
"I don't need to be vulnerable."
"I can help you..."
"... This isn't something you put a band-aid on, Lily..."
"...I want to help you..."
"...This is something I have to live with, Lily. These scars will never, ever go away..."
"Remus. Remus. I want to help you. Don't? Don't you understand?"
"But how? How?"
"I don't know. We'll figure it out. Okay?"
"Oh. Well."
"We'll figure it out, let me figure it out."
"If you want to."
"I want to."
06) Love Connection | Castiotone For The Painfully Alone
Woke up at dawn, face down on the lawn
Head awash with what had been
Rest cheek to cheek, fingers underneath
Soft impressions of your teeth
Some hours last, and at such a cost
Stains and scars I can't explain [...]
Some things are best left unsaid.
"Do you need a bandage?"
"Oh, it's nothing more than a scratch."
"Did I? Did I do that to you?"
"Let's not talk about it."
"Did I? Lily?"
"I'm hungry."
"Well, okay. Breakfast?"
"Yes, please."
07) Skinny Boy | Amy Millan
Skinny boy, all bones no lies
You're so miserable in the mornings
Will you will wait up for me?
It's sordid and I can't find my feet
And you’ve got lips I could spend a day with.
"Do you wanna go out on the lake?"
"Oh, I don't know, Lily. Perhaps. I'm not feeling so well today."
"Really? Well, what's the matter?"
"Oh. Well. You Know."
"Oh. Sorry."
"'S right. Not your fault."
"But you're never going to feel better sitting up here all cooped up, studying all day."
"Lily..."
"Oh, Remus! Let's go! Please?"
"I really do need to study."
"Rubbish. Come on... there's something I need to show you."
"Really? What?"
"Don't be dense, Remus."
"Oh. Yes. Well then, let's go."
08) A Camera Lens And Careful Days | Lydia
It's always blue and black or breaking skin,
Well cover up, girl, we'll finally leave again.
And you breathe me in so well,
In your room under the cover of this night.
"Lily, you really shouldn't be here. Not at all."
"Don't be such a bloody baby, Remus. No one is going to catch us."
"You always say that and they always do catch us."
"But it's worth it. Isn't it, Remus? Oh, don't blush. Isn't it?"
"Well, yes, I suppose."
"You suppose?"
"Yes. It is worth it, Lily Evans."
09) Our Last Days As Children | Explosions In The Sky
[Instrumental]
"Somedays, I don't think this will last, Lily."
"What won't last?"
"This. All of this."
"Including me?"
"Well. No. You'll live forever, Lily. You're beautiful; you'll live forever."
"And what about you, Remus?"
"Well. No. You see, people like me... are meant for dying."
10) Nosebleed | Maximo Park
He changed his look for you
But you changed your life for him
Now was the verdict worth the trial?
Did we go too far, is that why your nose is bleeding?
Last night I dreamt we kissed on a bench in the evening
"Please don't stare at me like that, Remus."
"How would you like me to stare at you, Lily?"
"Oh, come off it."
"But. Why?"
"He was rather persistent."
"And?"
"And well. You don't love yourself, Remus. You don't. It's not... fair for you to hate yourself like you do, and I wouldn't... wouldn't be a good person to love you when you can't even love yourself."
"Well. I suppose James does love himself."
"Ah, yes. See? You really don't understand, do you, Remus?"
"I suppose not."
"Ah. Ah-ha."
11) You Were Right | Built To Spill
You were right when you said
You can't always get what you want
You were right when you said
It's a hard rain's gonna fall
You were right when you said
We're still running against the wind
Life goes on after the thrill of living is gone
You were right when you said
This is the end
"Some times we have to do things we don't want to, Remus."
"I know that, Lily."
"It's for... the best."
"And?"
"And, well, I got sick of waiting. I don't think things would've changed for us."
"Ah, yes. Well, who's to tell? You're probably right. Things don't change for someone like me, Lily. You're right."
12) Weddings | Broken Social Scene
[Instrumental]
"Are you sure about this, Lily?"
"Well, no. Of course not."
"Oh."
"You could... stop me, Remus. Please. Stop me."
"Hrm. I. Well, no. You'll be happy, Lily. You'll be much happier than you could've. Well. You know."
"That's not true."
"Well."
"No."
"Yes."
13) Something Of An End | My Brightest Diamond
It was something of an end
Of a lovely and a wild thing [...]
And I can't seem to get it through your head
No matter what I do
I can't seem to get it through your head
That I will always love you
"Thanks for meeting me, Sirius."
"It's no problem."
"Well, yes, it is, and I know that. So. Thank you."
"Don't be a wanker, Remus... you know nothing would stop me from coming here."
"Let's get down to it... have you heard the news..."
"... about Peter?"
"Yes."
"Bloody motherfucking traitor. Yes. I've heard."
"What can I do?"
"I'm going to take care of this, Remus. We both know what the moon's doing tonight."
"Yes. Well."
"Dont' worry. I'll take care of them. Of her."
"Of them."
"Don't be dense, Remus."
"Yes, well."
"Now, I've got to be going. Lots to be done."
"Yes, of course. Oh! And Sirius?"
"Yeah?"
"If you find her... tell her. Well. You know."
"Yeah. I will. But, she knows."
"Alright."
14) (March 8th, 1983) It Was Probably Green | Carissa's Wierd
If you could be the trees I would be your leaves
After she died, we decided to believe
That her favorite color was probably green
"Er, so... did you know my Mum?"
"Yes. I did. She married my best friend, your father, James Potter."
"Oh. Yes."
"She was a good person. A good friend. She was always good to me."
"Erm. Well."
Remus Lupin presses his fingers to the boy's forehead and both of them think he is staring at the boy's scar, but the eyes underneath those thick black glasses shine brighter than any physical remnant of a prophecy ever could.
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