Bouncy as ever
Wow, I've been so buisy!! I went to cwmbran (which is near Cardiff) to visit my family, I was there for a week and I went with Mike, all that week we were like loves young dream, we seem to have found our natural groove now, mainly cause I have been standing up for myself so well!! We are moving to my mums house in June, thing is that she lives 90 miles away so its a big move (we arent living with her, she is moving somewhere else). Its a big town with busses every five minutes, no comparisson to this sleepy backwater with only two busses a week!! Anyway while we were there, I managed to near enough secure a job for when we move, it is working for the anglican church as a youth representative and youth officer. It involves a lot of sitting in on meetings and stuff, but also involves working with young people who are involved in things they shouldnt be, just like I was when I was 15!! I also got invited to join a band as their lead singer, on the understanding that I wouldnt be able to do any gigs till we move and so I said yes, the band hasnt really got a good name yet, the lead guitarist (swifty) wants to call it swig (swifty and invited guests) but i think thats really lame, Id like to call it renewed vigour, but thats also lame!! So its been all fun and games. I went to visit my dads grave, which is good cause its only the second time since he was interred, so it was quite hard but cathartic. I feel like a different person, these last few weeks with mike have been good, as I say i have been really adamant that my needs are met and iv been standing up for myself, I feel respected, and that is something I have never really felt. I went to visit some friends in Caldicot, with Mike, they were my vicar den and his wife Pam, he's not my vicar anymore, but i always call him that. They moved into my area when my dad died and i had no parents cause my mum was having a mental breakdown and my biological father was getting drunk and punching seven shades of shit out of me. they were really supportive and taught me about god and Jesus and love. I got involved in drugs and older men and got myself into tight spots all the time, but they were always there for me, it was them that got me to go to university because i was full of insatiable curiosity about god and dogma. if it hadnt been for them I wouldnt have met mike or lived here in ffarmers, then when i was living up here they moved to caldicot. we went there for the evening, it was great to see them, pam cooked us a delicious dinner and we had an evening of talking, she ended up bringing up drugs and my dad and Norbert (my ex whose name is taboo in my current relationship) but appart from those embarassing moments it was great. I had such a good time away. Iv done loads of christmas shopping already (i wanted to get in there while the shops are still relatively quiet and well stocked) and I went to work last weekend and ripped my boss to shreds (not litterally) He swore we woulndt be buisy on bonfire night which is ludicrous cos we are the only fast food shop (just about) in lampeter and so anyone at the fireworks who was cold or hungry probably came to us. He gave me only minimum staff, one of them was completely incompetant and I had to keep helping him, it was awful, I shouted and shouted and shouted, because the night before i had told him that we didnt have enough staff on for the following night, anyway I dont want to go into it too much cos it makes me angry ***FUME*** But other than that its been great, I got my first proper essay back and i managed to score 75% which is a first, so I was jumping for joy, thats like getting an A* so I was chuffed to beans and im on top of my work and all my conversations with mike are exciting and revolve around what is going to go where in the new house, and what we are going to do, and stuff like that. Life is finally looking up, if this keeps up im going to have to change my journal name!!!!!!