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I feel like giving up. I feel useless and purposeless. For some reason I feel like I have this burden to do something different and to make something of myself. I don't know where it comes from but it's extremely depressing. I know that I wasn't born into a shitty life or anything. I understand that I'm lucky and that I could've been born like the 80% of the world where I would have to strive just to ensure that I have enough food to be healthy enough to live past 40.
For some reason I feel like I am something and that I can be something. And that dreams really do come true. But I know that it is all bull. I understand that I need to follow the guidelines and norms of my society. But I don't want to. I want to wake up and do as I please and not have to worry about car insurance and school and turning into a blue-collar robot. I am graduating high school in a few months and honestly, I'm terrified. I don't want to go to college to place myself in some job that I don't want to do just to raise money for shit I don't need.
I'm a piece of shit just like every other walking, talking waste. I'm going to live and progress just like everyone else and there is nothing I can do about it. Eventually I will die and in 100 years, I'll be a name on a family tree. Isn't that exciting?
For some reason I feel like I am something and that I can be something. And that dreams really do come true. But I know that it is all bull. I understand that I need to follow the guidelines and norms of my society. But I don't want to. I want to wake up and do as I please and not have to worry about car insurance and school and turning into a blue-collar robot. I am graduating high school in a few months and honestly, I'm terrified. I don't want to go to college to place myself in some job that I don't want to do just to raise money for shit I don't need.
I'm a piece of shit just like every other walking, talking waste. I'm going to live and progress just like everyone else and there is nothing I can do about it. Eventually I will die and in 100 years, I'll be a name on a family tree. Isn't that exciting?