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Fucking tired of being treated like some stupid kid. I fucking hate this home. Im really not so sure why in the hell i want to leave to the military. Its either one one of three things or all i swear.
1. I want to get the fuck out of here so my mom can mind her fucking business, and worry about her other kids besides me. I swear i drink one fucking beer and here she comes talking shit like if i was some sort of drunk. I havent drank alcohol for about a month or two. Amazing right especially since i used to have a drinking problem because i couldnt understand why life liked fucking with me so much. Meanwhile my older brother is a fucking drunk and they ever say nothing about him becoming a good for nothing bum that is aggressive as they come and all he does is talk shit.
And my younger brother, drinks almost every fucking day, sometimes doesnt even comes home, and what does my mom say to them? Absolutely nothing. So tell me, why in the hell does she think its ok for her to say something to me for one beer?
2. Im tired of being in a relationship in which my decisions or what i want to do isnt important. A relationship that means that in order to work i have to keep the woman content in every possible way! Fucking ridiculous if u ask me. Far beyond that, i say, i want to spend one weekend with he and what does she do? She goes with her family. But thats ok i suppose, especially since i made plans to be with her last weekend only for her to just ruin it. Of coarse its fine though, i mean as long as i dont do that to her that is. Yep, bitch. Im really startig to get ticked off at her behavior. And most of all of my behavior for allowing all this shit to continue. Im far from stressing im a the point where im even getting gray hair on my chin and head! I keep saying im tired of relationships yet i keep getting myself into one. At least now with this sad lonely job itll be alot easier to remain single.
3. To help me become an officer, even tho this stupid ass economy isnt making it any easier for new cops to be hired to begin with. But at least ill get away from everyone here. Although itll come with both bad and good things. Good things... There are many, i wouldnt be here anymore, wouldnt deal with myfamily bullshit, and theyre stupid bipolar behavior. I can finally forget about trying to hang out with old friends once and for all. Etc. Bad things... Also many, as if i dont feel lonely enough already, imagine being station else where or in the frontlines. Meeting new people and forming new bonds and becoming friends, like if i wanted that im tired of people righ now period. Girls in the military, i hear they are the craziest of them all, and having a friend there that is a girl doesnt necessarily help to argue with what im about to say about them. Most of them are stupid whores that go out and get drunk and get laid, then scream rape the minute theyre pregnant and the dont know who the dad is. No thank you.
But i guess in the end i can always get a little studio or a small apartment somewhere alone, away from stupid ass problems and family. I swear if i do ill disappear for good this time for sure.
Can a nigga get some ice cream please?
Please feel free to comment, whoever reads this crap
Fucking tired of being treated like some stupid kid. I fucking hate this home. Im really not so sure why in the hell i want to leave to the military. Its either one one of three things or all i swear.
1. I want to get the fuck out of here so my mom can mind her fucking business, and worry about her other kids besides me. I swear i drink one fucking beer and here she comes talking shit like if i was some sort of drunk. I havent drank alcohol for about a month or two. Amazing right especially since i used to have a drinking problem because i couldnt understand why life liked fucking with me so much. Meanwhile my older brother is a fucking drunk and they ever say nothing about him becoming a good for nothing bum that is aggressive as they come and all he does is talk shit.
And my younger brother, drinks almost every fucking day, sometimes doesnt even comes home, and what does my mom say to them? Absolutely nothing. So tell me, why in the hell does she think its ok for her to say something to me for one beer?
2. Im tired of being in a relationship in which my decisions or what i want to do isnt important. A relationship that means that in order to work i have to keep the woman content in every possible way! Fucking ridiculous if u ask me. Far beyond that, i say, i want to spend one weekend with he and what does she do? She goes with her family. But thats ok i suppose, especially since i made plans to be with her last weekend only for her to just ruin it. Of coarse its fine though, i mean as long as i dont do that to her that is. Yep, bitch. Im really startig to get ticked off at her behavior. And most of all of my behavior for allowing all this shit to continue. Im far from stressing im a the point where im even getting gray hair on my chin and head! I keep saying im tired of relationships yet i keep getting myself into one. At least now with this sad lonely job itll be alot easier to remain single.
3. To help me become an officer, even tho this stupid ass economy isnt making it any easier for new cops to be hired to begin with. But at least ill get away from everyone here. Although itll come with both bad and good things. Good things... There are many, i wouldnt be here anymore, wouldnt deal with myfamily bullshit, and theyre stupid bipolar behavior. I can finally forget about trying to hang out with old friends once and for all. Etc. Bad things... Also many, as if i dont feel lonely enough already, imagine being station else where or in the frontlines. Meeting new people and forming new bonds and becoming friends, like if i wanted that im tired of people righ now period. Girls in the military, i hear they are the craziest of them all, and having a friend there that is a girl doesnt necessarily help to argue with what im about to say about them. Most of them are stupid whores that go out and get drunk and get laid, then scream rape the minute theyre pregnant and the dont know who the dad is. No thank you.
But i guess in the end i can always get a little studio or a small apartment somewhere alone, away from stupid ass problems and family. I swear if i do ill disappear for good this time for sure.
Can a nigga get some ice cream please?
Please feel free to comment, whoever reads this crap