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Every time I meet someone I tend to establish a very trusting relationship with them, but the problem is that when I trust the guys I like or am interested in, all I get is disappointment in the end. And once I move on from them and go to some other guy, I trust again and I'm disappointed again.
I know that I shouldn't be so optimistic and emotional and trusting with guys but it just so happens, that I am, and I don't think I can stop being that way.
But each and every time, it hurts, and it's hurting right now.
I don't know what to do because I know I expect to much and I know I reveal my thoughts and emotions to them to much but it's just in my nature and I can't change that. It seems to be becoming a pattern, where the guy never gives me enough intention even though he claims to "have lots of fun" and "plans a couple of dates for us" but I just believe and believe in them and in their words, when I know I shouldn't. And when I expect the best, I receive the worst.
I just don't want to deal with this bullshit anymore, I just want a guy to want me as much as I want him and for him to show me that he does feel for me and that he is serious about it.
This is just another story, and right now, the guy that I am interested in is becoming one of those guys that I think aren't good for me even though me and him can talk and talk forever, and are on totally the same levels. It just blows when it takes them to show you how they really are and for you to tell yourself once again.. that he "isn't the one for YOU."
"Nothing New"
I found myself wrong again
Starin out my window
Wonderin what it is I should have said
I found myself at home again
Waitin for the after call
From a fallout that feels like such a mess
Ohhhh I can only be myself
I'm sorry that's hell for you
Heyyy so what's my damage today
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
The trouble between me and you
Is nothing new
Such a pretty picture that you paint
I'm so vile while your a saint
Funny how your eyes see thick not thin
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
You know how to give it but you can't take it
It's all just a waste now you can save it
No matter what I do
Is never good enough, never good enough
I know that I shouldn't be so optimistic and emotional and trusting with guys but it just so happens, that I am, and I don't think I can stop being that way.
But each and every time, it hurts, and it's hurting right now.
I don't know what to do because I know I expect to much and I know I reveal my thoughts and emotions to them to much but it's just in my nature and I can't change that. It seems to be becoming a pattern, where the guy never gives me enough intention even though he claims to "have lots of fun" and "plans a couple of dates for us" but I just believe and believe in them and in their words, when I know I shouldn't. And when I expect the best, I receive the worst.
I just don't want to deal with this bullshit anymore, I just want a guy to want me as much as I want him and for him to show me that he does feel for me and that he is serious about it.
This is just another story, and right now, the guy that I am interested in is becoming one of those guys that I think aren't good for me even though me and him can talk and talk forever, and are on totally the same levels. It just blows when it takes them to show you how they really are and for you to tell yourself once again.. that he "isn't the one for YOU."
"Nothing New"
I found myself wrong again
Starin out my window
Wonderin what it is I should have said
I found myself at home again
Waitin for the after call
From a fallout that feels like such a mess
Ohhhh I can only be myself
I'm sorry that's hell for you
Heyyy so what's my damage today
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
The trouble between me and you
Is nothing new
Such a pretty picture that you paint
I'm so vile while your a saint
Funny how your eyes see thick not thin
Don't let me get in your way
Let it out like you always do
You know how to give it but you can't take it
It's all just a waste now you can save it
No matter what I do
Is never good enough, never good enough