Letting it Out
Hey well this is Dezi fa shizzle my nizzle!
sooo much shit has been going on good and bad its like dang LIFE IS SOOO HARD!!!! But I have learned sooo much this year and gosh its been hectic going through all the reality of everything and how things can change in a matter of seconds,days or weeks....This year was the most awful year ever and I thought Freshman year was bad....Pssshh was i worng....
On March 5,2005 I found out my friend Danny Died i was devistated and could not believe it, many people felt the same way i did.....it was a hard week for all of us.....it still is but we are all trying to be strong ....its just sooo hard to think that someone you thought was gonna be here forever isnt .....
This year wasnt all that bad...
On March 13,2005
This is my birthday for those of you who dont know ( and TASHA's)
i noticed that only my close friends were there
*Crystal (Lashes)
*Meesha LOKSTA (MELISSA)
*Jazmine
*Kimberly
*Roxanna
*Cristina
*Jackie
*Devin
*Olivia
*Melody
*Ashley
and
*Stephanie
It was the best birthday ever cuz i had all my girls with me and even tho there was a lil drama we just passed it by like nothing ....and also we got into fights like those physical ones hahahha shit was mmaaaad funny!
I Love these girls !!!!
I have a boy in my life
But im just scared
I guess cuz i dont wanna be hurt?
OR im scared to be in a relationship
But my friend NIkki GEEEuNIT told me something that kinda made me think twice...she said " In any relationship your getting into , your putting yourself in a situation where you are gonna get hurt" and i was like thats sooo true and i always tell myself whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger and i dont know what to do ? IM just soo confused in what i want ....i like him ....alooooooot!
I just dont know....??????
Latley I have been feeling outta place
i feel like im nobody....i feel like no one cares at all
maybe cuz they dont
I know im fucking annoying
I know i have a big mouth ....but i know what shit to say and what not to say .....
I dont go telling the shit that ppl tell me to other ppl
I know that i can be bitch....but who isnt????
Im sorry if im confusing you...lol
I cant help the way i am i cant change for anyone!!
I wont!
I just want to be accepted for who I am ....even if i am annoying,abnoxious or a bitch .....i ahve good qualities also
Im always there for my friends
I always tell my friends i love them, even tho sometimes they dont say it back...
I always listen to what ppl have to say and give them the best advice i can
I try soooo hard to be the best friend i could..
sometimes i feel like im taken for granted....sounnde concieted but i totally didnt mean it like that ....
I always try to make my friends feel better when someone hurts them
I always confort them when they are crying or just feeling low
Am I a bad person......??? Am I good person....i really dont know !!!!!!!!
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♥ Dezi
ps. I know its long FUUUUUUUUUCK it!!!!
sooo much shit has been going on good and bad its like dang LIFE IS SOOO HARD!!!! But I have learned sooo much this year and gosh its been hectic going through all the reality of everything and how things can change in a matter of seconds,days or weeks....This year was the most awful year ever and I thought Freshman year was bad....Pssshh was i worng....
On March 5,2005 I found out my friend Danny Died i was devistated and could not believe it, many people felt the same way i did.....it was a hard week for all of us.....it still is but we are all trying to be strong ....its just sooo hard to think that someone you thought was gonna be here forever isnt .....
This year wasnt all that bad...
On March 13,2005
This is my birthday for those of you who dont know ( and TASHA's)
i noticed that only my close friends were there
*Crystal (Lashes)
*Meesha LOKSTA (MELISSA)
*Jazmine
*Kimberly
*Roxanna
*Cristina
*Jackie
*Devin
*Olivia
*Melody
*Ashley
and
*Stephanie
It was the best birthday ever cuz i had all my girls with me and even tho there was a lil drama we just passed it by like nothing ....and also we got into fights like those physical ones hahahha shit was mmaaaad funny!
I Love these girls !!!!
I have a boy in my life
But im just scared
I guess cuz i dont wanna be hurt?
OR im scared to be in a relationship
But my friend NIkki GEEEuNIT told me something that kinda made me think twice...she said " In any relationship your getting into , your putting yourself in a situation where you are gonna get hurt" and i was like thats sooo true and i always tell myself whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger and i dont know what to do ? IM just soo confused in what i want ....i like him ....alooooooot!
I just dont know....??????
Latley I have been feeling outta place
i feel like im nobody....i feel like no one cares at all
maybe cuz they dont
I know im fucking annoying
I know i have a big mouth ....but i know what shit to say and what not to say .....
I dont go telling the shit that ppl tell me to other ppl
I know that i can be bitch....but who isnt????
Im sorry if im confusing you...lol
I cant help the way i am i cant change for anyone!!
I wont!
I just want to be accepted for who I am ....even if i am annoying,abnoxious or a bitch .....i ahve good qualities also
Im always there for my friends
I always tell my friends i love them, even tho sometimes they dont say it back...
I always listen to what ppl have to say and give them the best advice i can
I try soooo hard to be the best friend i could..
sometimes i feel like im taken for granted....sounnde concieted but i totally didnt mean it like that ....
I always try to make my friends feel better when someone hurts them
I always confort them when they are crying or just feeling low
Am I a bad person......??? Am I good person....i really dont know !!!!!!!!
:[
♥ Dezi
ps. I know its long FUUUUUUUUUCK it!!!!