searching for a normal life
i've realized that a normal life isn't really something that is constant. it can be built over and over again. before jm left for bangkok, i had a normal life - that of going to the office with him, having lunch with him, going home together, spending weekends with him and his family. when he had left, i was able to build a new normal life. i went out with friends, i gave myself some pampering by going to the spa or having my nails done regularly, i went about the tasks of preparing for a wedding. now i'm in bangkok and i have yet to find the new routine of a normal life. right now all i have is watching korean telenovelas after lunch, going to mass every afternoon, cooking dinner for my husband. there's the occasional movie with jm or visiting places here in bangkok that i haven't been to. still, i don't think i want my normal life to be like this. but all i know is whatever normal life i would come up with here, i just want to be happy, really happy; and all i am now is bored. i hope i find a job soon.