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I guess I don't know what to say anymore. You have me tongue tied and defeated. Whatever I say is wrong - at least to you. Or maybe it just comes out wrong because you leave me so flabbergasted. I can't express myself when your stone cold eyes pierce my soul. Ignoring me only causes more frustration and I struggle for words and for a voice loud enough for you to hear me. If I scream, maybe you will listen - but it pushes you further away. You lock the door to keep me out, but it only makes me want in more. You leave and I immerse myself in cleaning - hoping your presence will wipe away. No matter if I'm wrong or right, I always convince myself that forgiving you is the best thing to do. But in doing so, I let myself down. I'm giving in and telling you that hurting me is okay.
Some time away from you would do me some good. But I know if I leave - you won't be here when I get back. I guess that's the part that hurts the most. You aren't willing to give a little to make me happy.
I guess I'm just tired of feeling like I'm being used.
Some time away from you would do me some good. But I know if I leave - you won't be here when I get back. I guess that's the part that hurts the most. You aren't willing to give a little to make me happy.
I guess I'm just tired of feeling like I'm being used.