Self-reflection?
What have I done that is so horrible??
I don't think in general I have been a horrible person or treated anybody oh so wrong.
Yes,of course I said bad things about people that I didn't like but who hasn't?? That doesn't make me a horrible person.
I am afraid to tell people "Whats up" until it is to late,I have always been that way. I am trying to change it but I don't change things quickly. I move at a slower pace than most.
Sometimes I wish I believed in God or something like that, just so I could rationalize things. But God can't even rationalize most things that people do.
I don't believe in religion so I see things as they are,you shit talk me I'm not going to like you. If my boyfriend tells me you are shit talking me and others tell me you have why wouldn't I believe them. Why would everybody but you be lieing.
All I'm asking for is for you to understand that you have hurt me more than imaginable in my 19 years of life. I really can't deal with all the lies anymore.
Do you even remember how you hurt me? I'm not trying to guilt trip you or make you feel like I once felt.All I'm trying to do is make you understand and remember how you once were.
If you can't remember and learn from the past then your future is doomed,that has been proven all through out history. Remember and relalise it and we probably will be talking. But as soon as I see that you haven't changed I'm booting. I won't deal with it anymore.
I have cut a lot of friends out of my life that have been not real friends or just people I never really liked. I do want to become with some new people but I don't know how to go about talking to some of them. I don't know I guess I'm just hating myself and being somewhat insecure today or at least right now.
I feel like getting completely shit faced tonight, hopefully we are doing something that involves peopled drinking so I can drink a lot tonight.
I don't think in general I have been a horrible person or treated anybody oh so wrong.
Yes,of course I said bad things about people that I didn't like but who hasn't?? That doesn't make me a horrible person.
I am afraid to tell people "Whats up" until it is to late,I have always been that way. I am trying to change it but I don't change things quickly. I move at a slower pace than most.
Sometimes I wish I believed in God or something like that, just so I could rationalize things. But God can't even rationalize most things that people do.
I don't believe in religion so I see things as they are,you shit talk me I'm not going to like you. If my boyfriend tells me you are shit talking me and others tell me you have why wouldn't I believe them. Why would everybody but you be lieing.
All I'm asking for is for you to understand that you have hurt me more than imaginable in my 19 years of life. I really can't deal with all the lies anymore.
Do you even remember how you hurt me? I'm not trying to guilt trip you or make you feel like I once felt.All I'm trying to do is make you understand and remember how you once were.
If you can't remember and learn from the past then your future is doomed,that has been proven all through out history. Remember and relalise it and we probably will be talking. But as soon as I see that you haven't changed I'm booting. I won't deal with it anymore.
I have cut a lot of friends out of my life that have been not real friends or just people I never really liked. I do want to become with some new people but I don't know how to go about talking to some of them. I don't know I guess I'm just hating myself and being somewhat insecure today or at least right now.
I feel like getting completely shit faced tonight, hopefully we are doing something that involves peopled drinking so I can drink a lot tonight.