Even if it means my being miserable, As long as he's loving life
I'm kinda scared. Joe sounds like Blair in many ways. that scares me alot,I don't want to deal with any more lies and fucking stupidity. But hopefully they are nothing alike. Their is nothing that I miss about blair. haha wow I can't think of one thing,thats kinda sad.
Work is allright,it has it's ups and downs. i hate some people that I work with just bc they seem like big assholes. They dont ask nicely for something to be done they just tell you. and ugh i just hate people who are rude,expesically when their is no need for it. but i guess thats life and work,so whatever I will deal with it.
I have realized that I'm scared of alot of things. Like for instance,darkness when it's dark outside I hate being out their bc im just so scared of it. I have no idea why either,but I have all ways been that way. It's so weird though,I love being outside expesically at night but yet i'm so scared of it. Their are few times that I feel perfectly safe and calm when i'm outside at night,I guess I have to trust the person I'm with for that feeling? maybe,but all I know is I wish I wasn't scared and i wasn't such a loser.
I can't even explain how I feel at times. I swear to god I must be fucking bi-polar. But I guess that makes me oh so "unique"haha ya like I haven't heard that one enough. Gosh most guys are all the same,all I can do is hope that joe isn't like the rest. Because,I really don't feel like dealing with that bs again.
~~~~~~~~Emotional Breakdown~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ya i almost lost it yet again. and I think i know why. I hate this. All I know is I think i'm gonna hangout with somebody soon and breakdown in front of them,probally not a good idea. But we will soon find out.
Work is allright,it has it's ups and downs. i hate some people that I work with just bc they seem like big assholes. They dont ask nicely for something to be done they just tell you. and ugh i just hate people who are rude,expesically when their is no need for it. but i guess thats life and work,so whatever I will deal with it.
I have realized that I'm scared of alot of things. Like for instance,darkness when it's dark outside I hate being out their bc im just so scared of it. I have no idea why either,but I have all ways been that way. It's so weird though,I love being outside expesically at night but yet i'm so scared of it. Their are few times that I feel perfectly safe and calm when i'm outside at night,I guess I have to trust the person I'm with for that feeling? maybe,but all I know is I wish I wasn't scared and i wasn't such a loser.
I can't even explain how I feel at times. I swear to god I must be fucking bi-polar. But I guess that makes me oh so "unique"haha ya like I haven't heard that one enough. Gosh most guys are all the same,all I can do is hope that joe isn't like the rest. Because,I really don't feel like dealing with that bs again.
~~~~~~~~Emotional Breakdown~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ya i almost lost it yet again. and I think i know why. I hate this. All I know is I think i'm gonna hangout with somebody soon and breakdown in front of them,probally not a good idea. But we will soon find out.