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"Shouldn't date because we are best friends." I wonder if she is actually telling me that or complaining about her situation with the guy she likes. Either way, i heard the final call, there is no more hope. I should have realized long time ago, and i tried to give up, but my head and my heart dont agree. Funny thing how a logical person would become illogical when it comes to emotions. I know i need to give up, esp after hearing this, but i just cant. I wish i dont have to feel this way, but when did i get to choose what will happen and what won't. Seven months now, things havent get any better. I am tired, i am tired of holding back my emotions and act like everything is just fine, i am tired of chasing after the impossibles, i am tired of liking someone. Yet, i can't stop doing what i have been doing. I really don't know what to do.