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INSOMIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the dreaded.
shit lah i cant fucking slp man.. and everytime i think i feel sleepy enough to slp and i do try, i will toss and turn
wad sucks is that i am actually tired.. my eyes are tired, my mind is tired. but i just cannot fall asleep!
i tink i will be the living dead tml at work lah sian.. then after work i got to meet the guys to prep for the gig i'm having on sat... now i am still not so excited abt it man.. but when the time comes i tink i will be more panicy? haha
dammit! it is 4am now and i needa wake at 6.. 2 hrs of slp? like last week?
last week was still not as bad.. i had like 3 and a half hours of slp last week.
i am in serious need of healthy living
i need discipline in my life.
haiz.. dang. alright since i am already bloggin, i shall just talk abt wad happen today at work. well being a rental manager is not easy man.its like being a sergeant in the army i tink. u can get shit from both top and bottom! i actually got alot of shit from my top today. wads best is that the shit is not from my manager! its from another manager that's not on managing duties today.
like shit lah..i noe my crew got nth to do today, and i am thinking of stuff to let them do. i also have already assigned them to do qutie a number of stuff already. the thing is sometimes they do not carry out wad i want them to do exactly. its quite fustrating. and wads worst is to have unexpected circumstance to screw up my plan for certain things.. like for an example sending 2 crew off for break then both come back late cuz one is ill.. i understand that he is ill but i guess it boils down to my planning in the end that once such a thing happen i cant recover from it.. its like i have 9 crew including myself that have to settle the break time and each break is 1/2 hr. so in order to try and fit everything nicely, i will surely not take a break. and i do that every week. i also prefer to let the rest of the crew to go first then the managers. and still it is not enough time man..
my that other not on managing duites senior will come and tell me that i cant send 2 crews for break while my manager will tell me its up to me.. definatly i will send to wad cuz it makes things easier. of cuz that there will be some occassions where when i send 2 to go alot of ppl will come in and i will be shorthanded. heh. like wadever lah.. like this also cannot like that also cannot.
however i feel that i also should be more aware of things to do so that i can avoid kanaing fucked by ppl lah..i hate it man.. at first i tink its oh k. but now i feel as though someone is breathing down my neck all the time man.. and when he stress me, i will unintentionally stress my crew.
i tink ya if rental supervisor already got some shit like this managers definately will have a whole lot more. coaches too.. thats kinda why i am not too keen on becoming manager and stuff or be more active in coaching..
also its quite sad to see another long staying crew leave. i listen to some of her bad experiences here and makes me wanna leave too. but if i leave, how am i going to get income? can i still play hockey with the team? but i guess at most i will prob work till i get into ns. then again it feels quite far away. cuz that's like next yr and if i work more ya, the more chance of me getting shit.. to think abt it, 3 more mths and i would have stayed at my work place for a year.. amazing man.. my first job and i stayed 1 year.
enough abt that.. i realise that i needa focus more on my 3 things taht i really really want. they are:
- studies
- hockey
- band
yup, the 3 things that i so want in my life now.. to do all these 3 things in my life requires discipline and time management.. smth that i am soo lack of... i shall talk more abt these 3 in my next post.. time to try to slp again.