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When your decisions will change you...
I've met a great boy, a fabulous boy. The kind I'd been cynically coming to believe very well might not exist. He's basically flipped a lot of my world around... I find utter joy in his presence. And it's a wonderful joy too, like the joy I feel when I know God is romancing me in a warm breeze or a majestic sunset. It's an exhilirating, terrifying, lovely experience. For the long and short of it... I really like this guy.
We're taking it slow, and we're not even dating because we really want to follow after God's will and we're waiting on Him. The boy's in no rush (neither kind if you know what I mean)... and I trust his judgment. But there's a problem. We don't see eye to eye on some important matters of faith, tolerance, and our future plans. In matters of faith and tolerance, he is more conservative than I am... and he is also firmly set in his beliefs. Both of us hold these views as central to ourselves.
This means two things:
- God is going to change one of us/ one of us has to change.
- He's not moving anywhere, so it's going to be me.
Do I want that to happen?
I have to say, I have not felt this stressed about anything in years. Then again, I feel like all my thoughts are amplified by emotion.
I see the two of us as an amazing team in the future... and I've always wanted to find a boy with a faith stronger than mine. But what does that mean? Am I prepared to make changes? What is God going to do? Am I prepared to live with dissensions swept under the rug? Should I give up my thought of this relationship now?
I've got pretty clear instructions God's given me to follow for the time being, but they really leave all of these questions unanswered. But, do we have to have all the answers before we start?
I don't know.
I've met a great boy, a fabulous boy. The kind I'd been cynically coming to believe very well might not exist. He's basically flipped a lot of my world around... I find utter joy in his presence. And it's a wonderful joy too, like the joy I feel when I know God is romancing me in a warm breeze or a majestic sunset. It's an exhilirating, terrifying, lovely experience. For the long and short of it... I really like this guy.
We're taking it slow, and we're not even dating because we really want to follow after God's will and we're waiting on Him. The boy's in no rush (neither kind if you know what I mean)... and I trust his judgment. But there's a problem. We don't see eye to eye on some important matters of faith, tolerance, and our future plans. In matters of faith and tolerance, he is more conservative than I am... and he is also firmly set in his beliefs. Both of us hold these views as central to ourselves.
This means two things:
- God is going to change one of us/ one of us has to change.
- He's not moving anywhere, so it's going to be me.
Do I want that to happen?
I have to say, I have not felt this stressed about anything in years. Then again, I feel like all my thoughts are amplified by emotion.
I see the two of us as an amazing team in the future... and I've always wanted to find a boy with a faith stronger than mine. But what does that mean? Am I prepared to make changes? What is God going to do? Am I prepared to live with dissensions swept under the rug? Should I give up my thought of this relationship now?
I've got pretty clear instructions God's given me to follow for the time being, but they really leave all of these questions unanswered. But, do we have to have all the answers before we start?
I don't know.