College...
I'm changing...
It's strange. I really am changing. I guess what they say about college really is true...you DO change. I'm having so much fun and living life on the edge. But when will I slip off that edge? Or will I? I'm not good girl Jennifer anymore. I'm doing things I never thought I would do. Some good, some bad...I think. I'm more bold. I'm not quiet, shy... I'm known as the troublemaker, the bold and blunt one, the party girl that's up for almost anything. I've completely reinvented myself. But now I've got to separate the real me from the fake me. Am I living a lie or am I just coming into myself?
With the stuff that happened in the past months, I felt as if I wanted to forget about everything. Screw what happened, I went off to start a new life. I wanted to forget about everything that happened and wanted to start fresh. I knew it would be hard, and it was, but I didn't want to think about how screwed up everything was back home. My whole expectations of the future were gone; the one thing that I thought was constant was gone. I started not to care what happened and started living for the heck of it. And that's why I think I've changed so much. I just don't care anymore. I'm not saying I don't care about life, but rather the opposite. I don't care about society's rules and what people will think anymore. Seize the Day...and do what you want. You don't know what's going to happen, so enjoy your happiness while it lasts.
And on this note, I think I have come into myself. I haven't chosen a facade to hide behind. I am happy here.
Hmm...off to ponder some more...