answer my questions

Apr 25, 2008 12:34

I know this girl, her girlfriend (yes, her gf) cheated on her 6 times. Tell me plz . . She's still in the relationship . . Is this plain stupid or mad love?

We talked. I asked him what he wants. Does he want to date other girls? What is it that he wants? He told me . . All I need to know is that he likes me A LOT. He asked why am I concern about other woman when he hugs me to sleep every night for the past year.

He said he already warned me since the beginning that he just got out of a 6 years relationship. And, told me to just be patience. I don't understand . . He has feelings for me, he's not dating anyone else and doesn't want to . . Why is he still holding himself back? Would someone please explain that to me.

I asked him why his marriage didn't work out. I know him . . If he was sure enough to marry someone, how can it not work out? He answered . . Cuz the past caught up to us. He was with other women while they were dating. She couldn't get over that and always brought it up when they got into arguements. I said . . Then it ended cuz of him not her.

He agrees with me. After I heard that, my perspective changed. How can I be sure he's not doing that to me? He replied . . Lyn, I'm a different person today then I was back then.

Can I really believe that? Can a person really change in that way? I'm sure he mature since then probably cuz he learned a big lesson. But, can someone really change?

Can I trust that?

I ask him if he believes real, lasting love exist nowadays. He said . . Yes, his parents is an example. True. My parents are too. Death never took my mothers love away. My dad is her only.

I told him, I want to love like that and I want to be loved like that. He said he knows. I told him, I hope my feelings for him doesn't change the same way people change. I hope my feelings for him only grow with time. To me, as long as our feelings are still there, everything will work out. If our feelings change, its the end. Isn't it always?

He asked . . Why him? Why him? He's a great guy . . He is. But is that my only reason? Why him? I hope its not because of timing. That he's just the guy that's around when I'm at a point in my life where I want something real. Is my own desire for that lasting love making me pick him? Because he's in my life at the right time? Can't be. Hope not.

And, why the heck do I end up dating guys during their transitions?

Aside from all of these questions, things are going well for me. I'm liking my new position, making money, travelling to Canada, going out with friends, I shop when I want, I buy what I want, I'm on top of all my bills, lots of friends to do things with. The only thing I don't have a strong hold of is him which is why its such a strange thing sometimes. Everyone recognize that. They think I have everything and I am in a relationship, but just not the way I want it to be.

Its funny how people tend to focus more on the things they don't have. I'm no different.

I mean, things aren't that bad between us. We are dating. I been with him almost everynight. This week, we went out to eat, went fishing with his coworkers, and he asked me to take the night off this Saturday to hang out with him and his friends. What more do I want? For him to say he loves me? For him to not hang out with other people besides me? No, not that. I just want the same attention I give him.
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