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I want to be close to him. But I can't allow myself to. I don't want to depend on a guy to be happy. I know I'm a lot more fragile than I put on....but it's because I don't want to admit that I'm not as independent as I thought. Now I'm pushing him away. Why? Lots of reasons, like I can't allow myself to get involved with him because I know who he really is and how he'll be....and we have an awesome friendship that I don't want to ruin. But I don't think it would ruin it....which is bad. But I might regret it if I don't do something. I feel screwed if I do, screwed if I don't.
Why do emotions always have to come into play?
Why do emotions always have to come into play?