Mondays.....blah
Today has blown balls. To start off, I just wasn't happy today. I felt sad for some reason. I've felt sad a lot lately and I've een wanting to cry, but for some reason can't. Today I felt the same way. Then I found out my great aunt died this morning. Not that we were really close, but it was kind of a shocker. So I decided to skip my voice lesson and go hang out with my friend Cory. We had a good time until we got really pissed at eachother for a REALLY dumb reason. I got over it pretty quick, but he didn't seem to so much. He still won't talk to me which sucks because he's one of my favorite people here and I hate the fact that he's so pissed at me, and I hate myself because I made him that way.
It sucks because I really don't have anyone. Sure I have friends, but they're not really there for me. Nobody is. I need someone I can vent to, that will lend me a shoulder to cry on just for the sake of crying, but I don't have that anywhere. I know nobody wants to listen to me complain. Usually all I need is someone to give me a nice, big, long hug and tell me everything will be alright....even if it won't. But yea, again, I don't have anyone.
It still puzzles me why we open up to a cyber-world of strangers, yet we can't open up to those we're closest to.
It sucks because I really don't have anyone. Sure I have friends, but they're not really there for me. Nobody is. I need someone I can vent to, that will lend me a shoulder to cry on just for the sake of crying, but I don't have that anywhere. I know nobody wants to listen to me complain. Usually all I need is someone to give me a nice, big, long hug and tell me everything will be alright....even if it won't. But yea, again, I don't have anyone.
It still puzzles me why we open up to a cyber-world of strangers, yet we can't open up to those we're closest to.