man......
man today didnt really turn out like i wanted it too.i mean i looked forward to getting to see my babe,alll fuckin day long.i forced myself out of bed to go suffer at school for her,cause she thinks it would be better for me to pass for the future and shit like,and i completely respect that and thats why i'm gonna pass and shit,but yeah waited all day and then my brother in law took forever and i didnt get here till 9 and her mom said she couldnt see me and i was just like....:|...i dunno all i can do is sit here and think about her and be stoned and drunk which by the way is something i wanted to do with her and i cant,but what does it matter i just wanna see her not fuckin sit here blown out of my mind feeling worse about myself i wish i could just see her right now just hear her knock on the door.but yeah thats not gonna happen so i guess i'll go smoke myself to sleep and hope i feel better in the morning.........r.m.