well...
so right now i honestly feel like dying,
none of this has anything to do with school
it all has to do with friends and their fakeness, and myself and the people who hurt me.
i just want to know who i am and wats goin on,
right now i dont even know who i am and it sucks
i just wanna find a boy who can treat me right and until im ready and think that its right im sick of gettin my heart broken because im still fucking recovering from this last one so who knows
heres some song lyrics that can describe my feelings
....
So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before the flesh decays
Away...away
........................
So love me gently with a chainsaw (chainsaw)
And take the glass against your wrists.
You know I am your worst nightmare,
Oh how you love my bloody kiss.
....................
So let me take this medicine
To quench my love for violent things
My swan song will
Be like a bullet laced in anger
As the razor cuts a soft spot
On your heel.
..................
I'm here lying in your bed babe
Remember what you said to me
"You can be my james dean, I'll be your sweet queen"
I said that you were my first, but you weren't even close now
Like a frame in a movie, you're just one of many
Can you grant me one last wish
Play russian roulette as we kiss
I'll be your cheap novelty
Blow your brains out on me
....................
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
.............
I won't forget the day that, that I found God
In a kitchen knife now and on my arm
So paint the pale white floor with, with my red life
And tell myself this pain is the pain I love
As I swallow the pills of happiness
And you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake
..............................
There's poison in the drinking glass
Don't stop just sip it down
And in a swirling masquerade of sound
My body hits the ground
I'm beautiful when I'm asleep
Martini kisses land
On my blistered bloody scarlet lips
The bottles in my hand
.......................
I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete
................
xoxo
ally
none of this has anything to do with school
it all has to do with friends and their fakeness, and myself and the people who hurt me.
i just want to know who i am and wats goin on,
right now i dont even know who i am and it sucks
i just wanna find a boy who can treat me right and until im ready and think that its right im sick of gettin my heart broken because im still fucking recovering from this last one so who knows
heres some song lyrics that can describe my feelings
....
So let's play doctor babe
We'll operate today
Incisions must be made
You could help solve this case
We need a scalpel now
Under white lights you lay
We've got to hurry up
Before the flesh decays
Away...away
........................
So love me gently with a chainsaw (chainsaw)
And take the glass against your wrists.
You know I am your worst nightmare,
Oh how you love my bloody kiss.
....................
So let me take this medicine
To quench my love for violent things
My swan song will
Be like a bullet laced in anger
As the razor cuts a soft spot
On your heel.
..................
I'm here lying in your bed babe
Remember what you said to me
"You can be my james dean, I'll be your sweet queen"
I said that you were my first, but you weren't even close now
Like a frame in a movie, you're just one of many
Can you grant me one last wish
Play russian roulette as we kiss
I'll be your cheap novelty
Blow your brains out on me
....................
I'll lock myself alone in a room
Drink until the clock strikes noon
With just a pen, a pill, and some paper
And maybe I will write a sad song
Or another cliche poem
Of the person that I long to be
.............
I won't forget the day that, that I found God
In a kitchen knife now and on my arm
So paint the pale white floor with, with my red life
And tell myself this pain is the pain I love
As I swallow the pills of happiness
And you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake
..............................
There's poison in the drinking glass
Don't stop just sip it down
And in a swirling masquerade of sound
My body hits the ground
I'm beautiful when I'm asleep
Martini kisses land
On my blistered bloody scarlet lips
The bottles in my hand
.......................
I'll speak in riddles so you can understand
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen
So in love with me like sand to wet feet
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete
................
xoxo
ally