psychobabble
I am haldf drunk
" DO YOU KNOW WHO MARY MARKLEY WAS? SHE WAS A FUCKING COMMUNIST! MY DAD HAD TO MAKE SUREI WAS STILL REPUCBLICAN!"
-K-dawg, my roommate
annndd...
Karin's saying fucked up thinkgs about communism. Our dorm is in fact named after a communist. NOT HELPING ALLTHIS RAGING LIBERALISM AROUND HERE NOT TAHT I"M COMPLAINING. I adore karin. she leaves for Paris soon, then amanda moves into the 5216 with me.
Tonight was good, but I just had to document a few ky things that Kate and i had a heartto heart about, so when i forget to morow i can come back to my Lj.
Sex - i decided that that IS getting high of someone elses body. like their skin and sweat chemicals and just the entire experience. BANG. THAT"S A FORM OF HIGH. I like your body and the way you feel when you hit my lips thanks.
I mean, you lose contorl cuz you give into your hormones. Take a bowl and pack it with your animalisitc insticnts. Put it in pill form. Snort it. Shoot up your lust. Make the conscious decision to keep that, keep THEM, runing through your veins. Basically the same thing. You recall the initial impact both times. When you decide to just give up to yourself...to them...
Then you're gone. you're a part of teh billions that came before you who gave in to that exact same thing, weakened by the idea of a change inside of themselves. You're jsut another weak human, clinging to something for the precious minutes it helps you to escape your realiy.
In the end, I decide that sex beats out drugs on all accounts, as far as how dangerous it is. Sex messes with you moreso emotionally. An Addiction to someONE rather than a substanc drives you more than anyone sles could. That's what i fear. Resigning yourself to an addiction that intense.
But theny ou bypass the euphoria. hhhmmmm
oh geez what ami saying. I hae no idea waht i'm talkin about. i'm young and intoxicated and jaded.
I think I"m done with sex for awhile. It's a drug for me. I think it would just be interesting ot see where i'd channel my energy if it weren't solely coming out sxually. Or maybe i'll swing the other way. Destroy everything. End up with some STDs and an intense hatred for all things male.
Notice I never one mentioned love. I think I reject the idea of love and sex combined. It freaks me out. If i were ever in love and then had sex I think I would just pass out. Slip into a coma.
I also decided last night that I enjoy jealousy. On all sides. It motivateds like no other. But I only like jealusy when i eventually win in the end. I think that's acros the board with humankind though.
Also, we talked about Grosse pOint. I can't excape those peopel. First JOhn and then this army of Grosse POinte South girls have adopted me. And then kate, who in fact did say "Becca you're more Grosse Pointe than I am and I grew up ther" Um
I don't know how to analyze taht so i'll let it sit right here on the shelf next to the other profoun things peopel say when I'm compromised. I've been to Grosse Point 1.5 times. I am not Novi. I'm San Fransisco, I'd have to say.
Kate's cool. We have drunken heart to harts after shots of Bacardi. We like to complain a lot.
Kate and I remind each other that we've all got issues. Life sucks for aeveryone sometimes. EVERYONE.
But I've decided taht I'm done being upset about anything for too long. I"m having too much damn fun to think that I'm lonely. I'm so bored I'm sarting to play mindgmaes on myself.
I want someone who can beat me at my own game.
Well it's a lonely road that you have chosen
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
And it's a long time since your heart was frozen
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know
" DO YOU KNOW WHO MARY MARKLEY WAS? SHE WAS A FUCKING COMMUNIST! MY DAD HAD TO MAKE SUREI WAS STILL REPUCBLICAN!"
-K-dawg, my roommate
annndd...
Karin's saying fucked up thinkgs about communism. Our dorm is in fact named after a communist. NOT HELPING ALLTHIS RAGING LIBERALISM AROUND HERE NOT TAHT I"M COMPLAINING. I adore karin. she leaves for Paris soon, then amanda moves into the 5216 with me.
Tonight was good, but I just had to document a few ky things that Kate and i had a heartto heart about, so when i forget to morow i can come back to my Lj.
Sex - i decided that that IS getting high of someone elses body. like their skin and sweat chemicals and just the entire experience. BANG. THAT"S A FORM OF HIGH. I like your body and the way you feel when you hit my lips thanks.
I mean, you lose contorl cuz you give into your hormones. Take a bowl and pack it with your animalisitc insticnts. Put it in pill form. Snort it. Shoot up your lust. Make the conscious decision to keep that, keep THEM, runing through your veins. Basically the same thing. You recall the initial impact both times. When you decide to just give up to yourself...to them...
Then you're gone. you're a part of teh billions that came before you who gave in to that exact same thing, weakened by the idea of a change inside of themselves. You're jsut another weak human, clinging to something for the precious minutes it helps you to escape your realiy.
In the end, I decide that sex beats out drugs on all accounts, as far as how dangerous it is. Sex messes with you moreso emotionally. An Addiction to someONE rather than a substanc drives you more than anyone sles could. That's what i fear. Resigning yourself to an addiction that intense.
But theny ou bypass the euphoria. hhhmmmm
oh geez what ami saying. I hae no idea waht i'm talkin about. i'm young and intoxicated and jaded.
I think I"m done with sex for awhile. It's a drug for me. I think it would just be interesting ot see where i'd channel my energy if it weren't solely coming out sxually. Or maybe i'll swing the other way. Destroy everything. End up with some STDs and an intense hatred for all things male.
Notice I never one mentioned love. I think I reject the idea of love and sex combined. It freaks me out. If i were ever in love and then had sex I think I would just pass out. Slip into a coma.
I also decided last night that I enjoy jealousy. On all sides. It motivateds like no other. But I only like jealusy when i eventually win in the end. I think that's acros the board with humankind though.
Also, we talked about Grosse pOint. I can't excape those peopel. First JOhn and then this army of Grosse POinte South girls have adopted me. And then kate, who in fact did say "Becca you're more Grosse Pointe than I am and I grew up ther" Um
I don't know how to analyze taht so i'll let it sit right here on the shelf next to the other profoun things peopel say when I'm compromised. I've been to Grosse Point 1.5 times. I am not Novi. I'm San Fransisco, I'd have to say.
Kate's cool. We have drunken heart to harts after shots of Bacardi. We like to complain a lot.
Kate and I remind each other that we've all got issues. Life sucks for aeveryone sometimes. EVERYONE.
But I've decided taht I'm done being upset about anything for too long. I"m having too much damn fun to think that I'm lonely. I'm so bored I'm sarting to play mindgmaes on myself.
I want someone who can beat me at my own game.
Well it's a lonely road that you have chosen
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
And it's a long time since your heart was frozen
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know
All the things I ever wanted you to know
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open and you know