It’s flammable for a reason!
So I lay awake in bed thinking of my previous rants and what people thought of them… hurray for my gift of thought. Damn my own reflection! So there is a term that fits me… “Clairsentient” and if you haven’t heard what that means, it means I have a heighten sense of others feelings and emotions around me. The down side to this is that I feed off of this!!! I get my high off of other people’s misery and joys. Oh how cool am I? Not very… it’s a wonderful gift and a curse all in the same. Why is it a gift? I am able to reach into the very souls of those around me and get a real understanding of whom they really are, and have the potential to develop friendships that will last a lifetime! The down side of this is that there is a craving, a certain need for this emotional fuel.
So say I had a friend who was a very emotional person… who had emotions so out of control, there were like a never ending battery of emotional energy, positive and negative? It would only make sense for me to be drawn to them… if anything, as a life source?!? It makes sense to me… but there is more, much more.
I came up with an analogy that meeting people and getting into relationships is like wine and wine tasting. It gets better with age, you develop a certain taste for certain wines, and wine types, once you find a wine you truly love you will have it with every dinner for the rest of your life… well something horrible became apparent to me. The wine that I crave is the nectar of the gods. In a literal sense I crave for a goddess… why?!?!
~Chimera
So say I had a friend who was a very emotional person… who had emotions so out of control, there were like a never ending battery of emotional energy, positive and negative? It would only make sense for me to be drawn to them… if anything, as a life source?!? It makes sense to me… but there is more, much more.
I came up with an analogy that meeting people and getting into relationships is like wine and wine tasting. It gets better with age, you develop a certain taste for certain wines, and wine types, once you find a wine you truly love you will have it with every dinner for the rest of your life… well something horrible became apparent to me. The wine that I crave is the nectar of the gods. In a literal sense I crave for a goddess… why?!?!
~Chimera