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Alrighty, I'm just a little pissed off. By any measure I should be happy because I have a day off tomorrow thanks to the nor'easter which I suppose is causing big problems for someone, frankly it was much worse in my neighborhood in August but whateves. The kids are at least delayed tomorrow so I don't have to wake up at the crack of fucking 5am which also makes me pretty happy but I am more than a little concerned that this "car" thing is turning into a car thing. WTF! For the first time in my goddamn life I have money to pay my bills. on time. all of them. It's a life changing turn. It's not like I can buy everything that I need but I have enough money to live. And I have done my fair share of discretionary spending. I went to NYC, I buy expensive beer, I bought the swanky parking pass at work, I pay my babysitter $12/hr. I spend some cash. But homeboy wants to own the world's shittiest cars and pretend like we are slumming. I'm not INTO THAT anymore. I don't mind living below our means...it's fine that we live in a neighborhood that is a bit sketchy. I don't mind that we consider Cogans Pizza fine dining, I can live without cool clothes and weekly manicures. I can handle it that I don't have a wedding ring and that for my birthday I got a Nintendo DS game (not a game that I asked for, by the way. Oh, and it was used). But I want a reliable car. I have been driving a 2001 Chevy Cavalier for several years now. Frankly, I like the car but it's SMALL for a man who is 6'7" and tow kids and me. It's too SMALL to drive 800 miles in. ANd I don't mind renting a car to drive home. I've rented many cars before and I will rent many cars again. But I'm not going to pick your ass up in Hampton when your car breaks down again at midnight, honey. No way. I have spent all summer jumping his car which is even older than mine. It's time to call it quits and get another car. So, today I spent the day on the phone and online looking for something that is a little bigger, not brand new but under warranty, and affordable. I found a few cars and scheduled a test drive. The man thinks that the car is too expensive. It's not. He thinks we should be debt free before we buy a car which is a gorgeous idea and still an attainable idea but motherfucker we need a car! I love love love Norfolk but it's hardly a city big enough for good mass transit. And yes, zip cars are the shit but we need one car that will start, most of the time, in our driveway. I can read edmunds, I'm hardly falling in love with an SUV and then demanding the leather interior. (although I would fucking love a huge car with leather---but I just can't do it) This is a fucking Mazda Tribute (or a Ford Escape---it's the same car. It is! Ford bought Mazda in 2006). And I'm not asking for any money. I didn't argue when he insisted on keeping the house in Ohio and I didn't give him a hard time when we had to evict the tenants and I didn't give him a hard time about the thousands we lost on that deal. We continue to just break even on that house (my house we will have lost 30,000.00 on) and I don't ask him to sell it and be done. But taking about this car is requiring us to have some sore of financial summit tomorrow. WHat a crock of shit. I think that tomorrow, provided that I can get to the dealership (I have heard that we will all be underwater sometime in the next two days) I am just going to go and get the car. It's my money, what the fuck. It just sucks that I get the shitty resistance.