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So I am trying to get back onto my diet so that I can get back down about 5 more pounds. I am doing my version of atkins. No bread, no potatoes, no surgar, NO ALCOHOL :( and LOTS of water. I am hungry soooooo hungry right now I could eat my arm. BUT I have to be good. I am down to the weight that I need to be, the weight that I am healthy. I am 4'11 and I should have never weighed 130 pounds. I can not believe that I got that way. I can remember that I felt horriable. I am glad that I took a healthy turn and I am taking care of my body and getting sleep and trying to cut out a lot of fatty and surgary foods.
I went to visit my grandmother over the weekend and I feel bad. My grandfather passed away at the end of June and my grandmother is trying to get use to taking care of finances that she never had to worry about. I could tell that she was sad and tired. I have never seen my grandmother so sad before. My grandparents were married for 55 years not counting the year they were divorced. They went through hell and back, with my grandfathers alcoholism. They were poor for most of there life and my grandmother was raising 4 children by herself. She loved my grandfather even when it was hard and nasty. She never wanted to give up on him, but after the children where gone she left him. Basically saying, you don't quit drinking I am gone. Which she did, she left and filed for divorce. They were divorced for about a year. But they couldn't stay apart. They loved each other very much. My granddaddy gave drinking and smoking up for my grandmother. When this happened it was in the 1970's and by the time my granddaddy quit smoking he had developed emphaziema. SO my grandmother took care of him for about 30years. The last 5years was the hardest.He was constantly getting sick and in the hospital. Finally it took his life. It tore my grandmothers heart out. I hate to see her hurting but I guess she will be for a little while. I hope that I will find someone that I can grow old with and love with all of my being. (Which I know I have found someone that I love with all of my being. We just took a break for a little bit.) I am hoping that my grandmother is going to be happy soon.
So that is my post for today. I am about out of things to say. Umm yeah....
I went to visit my grandmother over the weekend and I feel bad. My grandfather passed away at the end of June and my grandmother is trying to get use to taking care of finances that she never had to worry about. I could tell that she was sad and tired. I have never seen my grandmother so sad before. My grandparents were married for 55 years not counting the year they were divorced. They went through hell and back, with my grandfathers alcoholism. They were poor for most of there life and my grandmother was raising 4 children by herself. She loved my grandfather even when it was hard and nasty. She never wanted to give up on him, but after the children where gone she left him. Basically saying, you don't quit drinking I am gone. Which she did, she left and filed for divorce. They were divorced for about a year. But they couldn't stay apart. They loved each other very much. My granddaddy gave drinking and smoking up for my grandmother. When this happened it was in the 1970's and by the time my granddaddy quit smoking he had developed emphaziema. SO my grandmother took care of him for about 30years. The last 5years was the hardest.He was constantly getting sick and in the hospital. Finally it took his life. It tore my grandmothers heart out. I hate to see her hurting but I guess she will be for a little while. I hope that I will find someone that I can grow old with and love with all of my being. (Which I know I have found someone that I love with all of my being. We just took a break for a little bit.) I am hoping that my grandmother is going to be happy soon.
So that is my post for today. I am about out of things to say. Umm yeah....