Reflection
This day has been quite uneventful really.
I woke up at 1 PM (That's probably the latest time that I woke up. Wooh. I set a new record. LOL) and ate my brunch - breakfast/lunch.
Afterwards, the rest of the day passed by in a blur.
Majority of my time was spent in front of my sister's MacBook - browsing livejournal and reading a couple of fanfiction. I also had to clean the room that my big sis and I shared for it was already long overdue. Everything souds boring to you, right? But honestly, this is how I want to spend my day. Just lying in front of the computer and doing nothing productive. I just want to marvel in my own world and forget about everything else around me. I even wish that I could stop going to school for a year at least so that I could waste that time on seemingly unimportant things. (-insert sigh-) But sadly, that is not possible. I have to study and go to school even if my eart is't really that ito it. I have to endure long lectures even though I'm really tempted to just simply curl up in my bed and stare at the ceiling. And sometimes, I just ask myself why. Why do I have o endure al of this? To get a high-paying job? And then what? What will I do after that? I refuse to believe that that is what life is all about. All that I want is to be happy. But I don't know how. I just don't know. everything I do just grants me temporary happiness but nothing can ever give a permanent solution to the emptiness I feel. In fact, I don't even have a permanent hobby. I might get totally hooked with certain hobby but my interest for it goes easily. (-insert another sigh-) I just don't know what I should do with myself anymore. I have no clue as to which path I must take. But I guess I shouldn't really worry about these things so much since happiness will eventually come... hopefully.
I woke up at 1 PM (That's probably the latest time that I woke up. Wooh. I set a new record. LOL) and ate my brunch - breakfast/lunch.
Afterwards, the rest of the day passed by in a blur.
Majority of my time was spent in front of my sister's MacBook - browsing livejournal and reading a couple of fanfiction. I also had to clean the room that my big sis and I shared for it was already long overdue. Everything souds boring to you, right? But honestly, this is how I want to spend my day. Just lying in front of the computer and doing nothing productive. I just want to marvel in my own world and forget about everything else around me. I even wish that I could stop going to school for a year at least so that I could waste that time on seemingly unimportant things. (-insert sigh-) But sadly, that is not possible. I have to study and go to school even if my eart is't really that ito it. I have to endure long lectures even though I'm really tempted to just simply curl up in my bed and stare at the ceiling. And sometimes, I just ask myself why. Why do I have o endure al of this? To get a high-paying job? And then what? What will I do after that? I refuse to believe that that is what life is all about. All that I want is to be happy. But I don't know how. I just don't know. everything I do just grants me temporary happiness but nothing can ever give a permanent solution to the emptiness I feel. In fact, I don't even have a permanent hobby. I might get totally hooked with certain hobby but my interest for it goes easily. (-insert another sigh-) I just don't know what I should do with myself anymore. I have no clue as to which path I must take. But I guess I shouldn't really worry about these things so much since happiness will eventually come... hopefully.