ok and now its renee
i know this is only for myslef and i knwo no one reads this and that makes this that much better because tomorrow when i am sober i will read what danly wrote me and i will be soooo happy and no one else will really read it. its like its my own personal thing that he just wrote me. and i didnt read it. danly is the awesomest boy ever and seroiusly ok today mike called me and i got really freaked out cause if he would just stop calling me and text messaging me then i would stop caring about him. MIKE STOP. stop calling me. stop stop stop stop you make me upset and ruin my day and my life and you just make me so upset stop it happeing you are making me drink every day. no its not your fault bt when im drunk i just feel better................... WHAT i just told danly and alexis how i wish i was married onlu last week, and how before ythat i really never wanted to get married. and then i was at cvs last week and i worked with christina and sophie and all they did was bitch about being married. and all i could think was how luckky they fucking were. FUCK there were so lucky about being married and someone loevs them and they love each other and WHAT THE FUCK and its not fair and then just now dANLY AND ALEXIS WERE ON NO CAPS LOCK on the bed and danly was talking about how awesome it owuld be to jus be married and he said exaclyt the samw thing i just said. i love that he KNOWS what im talking about. and alexis does to. and i told them. and like wtf mate i have HONESTLY BEEN DRUNK SINCE THURSDAY 2 WEEKS AGO.... EVERY FUCKING NIGHT> I AM ACTUALLY LITERALLY A LUSH RIGHT NOW SERIOUSLY THERE IS SO MUCH TO SAY AND SO MUCH IS HAPPENING IN THIS ROOM THAT I AM IN OH MY GOD BUT I CANT SAY IT CAUSE I NEED TO STOP MY DRUNKEN RANT AND BOBBY EMERY KNOWS...... HE KNOWS WHAT ITS LIKE TO =BE DRUNK TOO MUCH AND IT NEEDS TO END AND WHEN I READ THIS IN THE MORNING I WILL WANT TO DIE> and I LOVW ALEXIOS AND DANLY AND EVERYONE