the night
last night mandy and i drove around granby for 2 straight hours. it was a wonderful beautiful night with amazing music and i am sorry for everyone else who missed this night. granby is gorgeous in so many places and no one realizes it. all anyone thinks about is how much the fuckers in this town suck but thats not what makes the essence of the town. look around you, its awesome.
we drove on higley and onto that road maryellen lives on and at the end of it we stopped because we both had gasped at the view. mandy backed up the car a little and we just sat there.
the sky was lit up by hartford, but we couldnt see the city, just the delicate orange light that poured up from it, lighting the undersides of the low hanging clouds. directly in front of us was a wooden fence, old and wonderful that framed the picturesque scene. the orange faded quickly into a dark dark purple-blue and then farther upwards into lighter blue clouds, and then into stars and finally to the brightest full moon i have seen since last summer.
we drove down mountain road without any lights on and could see fine. but before that, we stopped again at the end of silkey to look at the view near dans house which has always been one of my favorites in the whole town. there are those two trees right in front of you that become no more than silhouettes with the lights off against the luminated backdrop of the cities and fields and long streches of land that makes up the boundary for the sky. we could see the airport lights and harfords lights and maybe even springfield and all these places brightened the sky in the same way and all we could do was stare and sing loudly to "livin on a prayer" and smile at the incredibleness of our fortune to right where we were right at that moment for as long as we could be without any disruptions from anywhere else. we were untouchable at that moment. we saw the highest house that we could see and it was bright and on the very top of "apple cider hill" or something and, becoming mesmerized, decided that we had to get there adn that there was no stopping us. we drove all the way up the road and even into those peoples driveway and just sat there next to their house looking at what they could see all of the time being a little jealous, a little nervous, but mostly a LOT amazed at how we didnt care if they came outside and yelled at us or that we were just wasting gas for no reason at all. and the view.... wow. i aspire to kick the people out of their three story double decked (literally) bay windowed home and take it over for myself. and all i would ever do is sit out on that top deck and look at what nature had blessed me with and how amazing life is.
i thought of ms.dixon last night, driving around, and my english class last semester. i thought of walker percy and the "discovery" of things. mandy really wanted a camera and really, so did i, but NO. taking pictures would have ruined our moment of real life and looking back it wouldnt be the same and we might even forget what the pictures were from. not having any to begin with and maybe THEN losing the memory is ok. but forgetting and later throwing out the pictures to me would be heinous. it was last night that i finally really understood walker percy. thank you ms.dixon even though you will probably never know this.
mandy i love you haha last night was so fun. all i want is for crystal to be home and for the three of us to be together again because sometimes all i ever want is to recapture the amazingness that we had because those 2 girls are so great and the 3 of us together were so.... indescribable. but mandy and crystal know exactly what i mean, and thats who matters so i will not explain it any further in depth.
im going to pack now to go back to school. AHHH I CANT WAIT. i love granby, but boston is where my friends are and god i miss them so much that i could die