last day of year and oh what a year its been
dear lord i just read that entry i posted last night and WOW i am such a huge bitch. thats awful. i should end the story of the necklace in saying that matt called me later to tell me he actually did look for it and that he couldnt find it and while i only half believe him, i should still say that he did take the time to actually call me and that he didnt entirely dimiss the situation. sorry i hated you yesterday matt.
ANYWAY
2004! DAMN! what a great fuckin year. it started off not so awesome ... in january i was all pissed off about boston and i wanted to go home kind of and then in february mr casassa passed away and at the end of that month/beginning of march the whole mike thing became very upsetting and i was not happy. then mr. booray passed away and 2004 pretty much looked like it was gonna suck a gigantic cock.
then... the end of march turned out to be very fun and april was even better marked by the entrance of cj and the growing closeness between all of our friends. helen and i started hanging out with danly and justin more like we had during the first semester and it was wonderful. we had so much fun and got so retarded until the end of school. i went to monroe and celebrated my birthday with so many fucking AWESOME people that i loved. then...
SUMMER. summer was the most amazing period of my life. it was 4 months of me having to do pretty much NOTHING that i didnt want to do. all i did was play really... even work at cvs was a lot of fun because everyone there is awesome and i had gotten so adept at photo that nothing was difficult or confusing anymore. my summer pretty much revolved around bryce, dan, bobby, and bober. i went on so many explorations, climbed and hiked over so much of my town... things that stick out in my memory are these:
constantly exploring bobby's backyard (120 acres of ridge, cabin, brook, and assorted other exciting/beautiful things), climing sodomy mountain with dan randomly one afternoon and sitting up there forever and just talking and figuring things out...i love you dan, hacking the fuck out of things with the machete including haha crop circles, enders forest natural waterslide, the gorge, patented armentano burn cruise, VBMD II obvoiusly, our backpacking week as the most fitting culmination of our summer... there are so many things i remember from that trip that i cant even list them all.. me and dan almost dying off the side of talcott mountain... how embarrassing would that have been considering the fact that theres a trail on it that we asshats chose not to use, final dispatch even though i dont really like dispatch, MY SUMMER CD, my car, WILVIN i miss you and im gonna kill the fucker that stole you from me the BASTARD, camping out in dans backyard, bryces backyard, and various cabinfests, also various awesome emeryfests that bob always got caught having, hahah seeing shrek 2 super high, blowing up big yellow (im sorry!), hilarity at the cvs picnic, and every night just getting so high and going to the sev and trying to get lost but not being able to due to knowing the area far too well. in reverie in the car. vermont. "fishing" at dans pond... which was actually me just shaving a stick down and talking. the council caves and tree bending. bryce world's minivan. manitook lake and all its dirty rope swing night time canoeing glory... battleship with rocks in the lake, oh manitook how i love thee...lets what else... there was so much of this summer that i just need to write down so i never forget it... oh! wendys! mandy pooping in that bush and wiping her ass with a receipt. i hope i never forget that. who everyone is in filth hahah yes! jumping on dans trampoline in the heat lightning. stopping on perimeter road exactly underneath the flight path of the landing airplanes with slurpees. the food fag and the hag kicking us out repeatedly. the fucking head tingler- DEATH.
one of my favorite emery property explorations was teh very beginning of june when dan bob and i were incredibly high and we went hiking and it started to rain and we blazed our own trails through the woods and i thats when i started thinking about life and humans and humanity in the way that i do now. the combination of all those factors of my mental state and my surroundings kicked something into gear for me and i just had this epiphany about life and nature and how things would be without the boundaries of society. that was an incredible day.
another wonderful moment of the summer was the night we partied out in dans woods and only bryce, dan, bob and i actually camped out there and everyone else just went home. we went out to what dan and his brother used to call "lookout rock" when they were little. actually we came upon it unintentionally... we had just been trying to do some night exploring and some tree bending and we saw the night sky... so many stars, so silent and amazing. the four of us sat on the rock, each facing a different direction and at a different height... i think i was facing east and at the top... and we just marveled at everything and leaned on each other so we wouldnt fall off, and no one talked and we sat there for so long in love with the moment and every aspect of it.
all the bottles flying through the air at the dispatch concert... so many people... like 100 thousand... just loving life and celebrating it and listening to pleasing noises (music, but at the time i was high and thinking pleasing noises cause thats really what it is) and the entirety of the crowd was hurtling plastic water bottles into the air and yeah i know it was bottles but it was so cool and like nothing i had ever seen. it was just such a celebration. and at the end when they played the general and just jammed the FUCK out on the end of it and everyone there was going so crazy all i could think was "really, could my life be much more awesome right now?" i love happy life
one of the night canoeing times on manitook...it was dan bobby and i... we started when there was still significant light and just ended up sitting still, all three of us on the lake under a shining, glittering moon, illuminating the whole lake. god, it was incredible. the water was perfectly still and i would lean back and look at bob over my head and watch him looking up at the moon and what a great thing to see. a person sillhouetted against a relativly bright night sky with a round glowing moom and the essence of water and nature.... ahhhh
the west bond night hike thing i already wrote about as my favorite moment of 2004... i dont need to reiterate
i loved driving around with bober that one night for hours just talking and smoking when no one else was home. thats a nice warm memory
the whole time me and bob were in vermont.... that whole time was so amazing and wonderful. every single thing about it now feels like a dream to me, but i think it was the most perfect two days any two people could have.
and those two days were the very last ones of my summer. how wonderful.
school this semester was awesome. i realized how many people i really like and having an apartment has so far been a blessing (who SAYS blessing? what??). we have had so many parties and had so much fun and classes went well and were pretty interesting and everything was generally good. i met new cool people. this has definitley been the best semester of any schooling ive ever done. everything about it has just been incredible... its not like everything has gone especially smoothly or something like that, its just been... i dunno ive just had a good feeling for most of the year. i feel like ive established something new in my brain about myself. i have realized things about myself and ive just gotten older and i really like it. im pleased that this year has turned out the way it has.
the fact that there is so much more that i can say here makes me really happy, but i dont feel that i need to do that. all im goig to say is that i hope 2005 pans out to be this wonderful. i guess we'll find out starting in about 8 hours. YEEEEEEAH!
ANYWAY
2004! DAMN! what a great fuckin year. it started off not so awesome ... in january i was all pissed off about boston and i wanted to go home kind of and then in february mr casassa passed away and at the end of that month/beginning of march the whole mike thing became very upsetting and i was not happy. then mr. booray passed away and 2004 pretty much looked like it was gonna suck a gigantic cock.
then... the end of march turned out to be very fun and april was even better marked by the entrance of cj and the growing closeness between all of our friends. helen and i started hanging out with danly and justin more like we had during the first semester and it was wonderful. we had so much fun and got so retarded until the end of school. i went to monroe and celebrated my birthday with so many fucking AWESOME people that i loved. then...
SUMMER. summer was the most amazing period of my life. it was 4 months of me having to do pretty much NOTHING that i didnt want to do. all i did was play really... even work at cvs was a lot of fun because everyone there is awesome and i had gotten so adept at photo that nothing was difficult or confusing anymore. my summer pretty much revolved around bryce, dan, bobby, and bober. i went on so many explorations, climbed and hiked over so much of my town... things that stick out in my memory are these:
constantly exploring bobby's backyard (120 acres of ridge, cabin, brook, and assorted other exciting/beautiful things), climing sodomy mountain with dan randomly one afternoon and sitting up there forever and just talking and figuring things out...i love you dan, hacking the fuck out of things with the machete including haha crop circles, enders forest natural waterslide, the gorge, patented armentano burn cruise, VBMD II obvoiusly, our backpacking week as the most fitting culmination of our summer... there are so many things i remember from that trip that i cant even list them all.. me and dan almost dying off the side of talcott mountain... how embarrassing would that have been considering the fact that theres a trail on it that we asshats chose not to use, final dispatch even though i dont really like dispatch, MY SUMMER CD, my car, WILVIN i miss you and im gonna kill the fucker that stole you from me the BASTARD, camping out in dans backyard, bryces backyard, and various cabinfests, also various awesome emeryfests that bob always got caught having, hahah seeing shrek 2 super high, blowing up big yellow (im sorry!), hilarity at the cvs picnic, and every night just getting so high and going to the sev and trying to get lost but not being able to due to knowing the area far too well. in reverie in the car. vermont. "fishing" at dans pond... which was actually me just shaving a stick down and talking. the council caves and tree bending. bryce world's minivan. manitook lake and all its dirty rope swing night time canoeing glory... battleship with rocks in the lake, oh manitook how i love thee...lets what else... there was so much of this summer that i just need to write down so i never forget it... oh! wendys! mandy pooping in that bush and wiping her ass with a receipt. i hope i never forget that. who everyone is in filth hahah yes! jumping on dans trampoline in the heat lightning. stopping on perimeter road exactly underneath the flight path of the landing airplanes with slurpees. the food fag and the hag kicking us out repeatedly. the fucking head tingler- DEATH.
one of my favorite emery property explorations was teh very beginning of june when dan bob and i were incredibly high and we went hiking and it started to rain and we blazed our own trails through the woods and i thats when i started thinking about life and humans and humanity in the way that i do now. the combination of all those factors of my mental state and my surroundings kicked something into gear for me and i just had this epiphany about life and nature and how things would be without the boundaries of society. that was an incredible day.
another wonderful moment of the summer was the night we partied out in dans woods and only bryce, dan, bob and i actually camped out there and everyone else just went home. we went out to what dan and his brother used to call "lookout rock" when they were little. actually we came upon it unintentionally... we had just been trying to do some night exploring and some tree bending and we saw the night sky... so many stars, so silent and amazing. the four of us sat on the rock, each facing a different direction and at a different height... i think i was facing east and at the top... and we just marveled at everything and leaned on each other so we wouldnt fall off, and no one talked and we sat there for so long in love with the moment and every aspect of it.
all the bottles flying through the air at the dispatch concert... so many people... like 100 thousand... just loving life and celebrating it and listening to pleasing noises (music, but at the time i was high and thinking pleasing noises cause thats really what it is) and the entirety of the crowd was hurtling plastic water bottles into the air and yeah i know it was bottles but it was so cool and like nothing i had ever seen. it was just such a celebration. and at the end when they played the general and just jammed the FUCK out on the end of it and everyone there was going so crazy all i could think was "really, could my life be much more awesome right now?" i love happy life
one of the night canoeing times on manitook...it was dan bobby and i... we started when there was still significant light and just ended up sitting still, all three of us on the lake under a shining, glittering moon, illuminating the whole lake. god, it was incredible. the water was perfectly still and i would lean back and look at bob over my head and watch him looking up at the moon and what a great thing to see. a person sillhouetted against a relativly bright night sky with a round glowing moom and the essence of water and nature.... ahhhh
the west bond night hike thing i already wrote about as my favorite moment of 2004... i dont need to reiterate
i loved driving around with bober that one night for hours just talking and smoking when no one else was home. thats a nice warm memory
the whole time me and bob were in vermont.... that whole time was so amazing and wonderful. every single thing about it now feels like a dream to me, but i think it was the most perfect two days any two people could have.
and those two days were the very last ones of my summer. how wonderful.
school this semester was awesome. i realized how many people i really like and having an apartment has so far been a blessing (who SAYS blessing? what??). we have had so many parties and had so much fun and classes went well and were pretty interesting and everything was generally good. i met new cool people. this has definitley been the best semester of any schooling ive ever done. everything about it has just been incredible... its not like everything has gone especially smoothly or something like that, its just been... i dunno ive just had a good feeling for most of the year. i feel like ive established something new in my brain about myself. i have realized things about myself and ive just gotten older and i really like it. im pleased that this year has turned out the way it has.
the fact that there is so much more that i can say here makes me really happy, but i dont feel that i need to do that. all im goig to say is that i hope 2005 pans out to be this wonderful. i guess we'll find out starting in about 8 hours. YEEEEEEAH!