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ok so i havnt undated in a very long time havnt really had the time so i thought i would write now since i got sometime...
WORK:
work sucks sometimes. im goin to put my 2 weeks notice in soon. bc all the awesome people there are leavin and then ill b there wit ms. tracie and i hate her wit a passion. but other then that i make bout 200 and somethin a week so its nice. but im tired of workin in the heat all day. i lose to much weight workin there. was 106 or more now im 100 its poopy. brandy doesnt work there anymore so i have no there to lunch wit anymore lol.
FAMILY:
my family has fuckin lost their minds. i fuckin crack pot aunt is takin my 2 lil cousins faith and crystal around my fuckin child rapist grandfather(moms side) and its so fuckin stupid she says she does it for money but she never leaves them alone wit her. but yet still y woudl u take ur 2 lil kids that u love around someone like that when he raped u and ur neice i dont get it. she is stupid to many damn drugs fucked up her brain. my cousin liz saw her and my grandfather at her job where she hostess and lost it. she was there wit only one of her kids crystal fell off her bunk bed and fratured(sp?) her skull and my fuckin aunt is out eatin instead of stayin at the hospital wit her child. my aunt is a fuckin bitch. she is so stupid. she kids are raped and scared for life and she cant comprehend it. i dont understand it. my aunt marie and danny are losin there minds. my aunt bb and my mom barly talk bc they both hold grudes over old shit. my uncle from germany is comin to tampa on the 12tha dn 13th and i must call off work again and go. im scared for him to come here and see how fucked our family has gotten over the years. i love my family but they alll need some serious fuckin therepy(sp?).
FRIENDS:
brandy is leavin me soon to go to aubrun :( im goin to b alone here. i will not have friends im so sad. she is like my bestest friend. she has been there wit me through alot and i have been there for her in return. we both have been through alot and im never goin to stop bein there for her. but it still sucks that she is leavin. bc i dont know who i will hang out wit. ill prob b at home lol.
i ran into a bunch of old friends at Atlantis in mobile. that was interestin totally reminded me of homecomin along time ago. dancin wit CHAS, ben, tj, cliff, and eric. was totally fun and i want to do it again soon. i missed those boys they mad life fun. im supposed to hang out wit chas sometime. im also supposed to hang out wit lauren. but we never can get together bc it gets screwd up blah. terrel is my new clubbin parnter though. he is fuckin awesome.
MYSELF:
lets see as for myself. ive lost weight and grow a few inches lol. i painted my room and went through old pictures and notes and letters while i cleaned out my room. it was totally awesome readin some of that stuff but also sad bc u think geezz what happened. ive gone to japan this summer to see katie graduate. it was the koolest thing ever to do. i have tons of pics and shit that i collected while i was there. i missed katie. its funny she has grown up so much. and she is happy and im so happy for her. she will b movin here soon. but she will b livin in Virgina to go to college. i will defintaly b visitin her. im gettin a tattoo on my ankle soon. its a rose and a cross and it has chelsea intials in it. i drew it myself. i dont care what anyone says bout her intials bein there im goin to have there. i know me and chelsea werent that close when it happened. but i still loved and cared bout her. i really wish me and her and stayed friends i think bout that alot and im like damn im stupid. i hate myself alot of the time. but i guess life goes on to a certain extent. i read everyones journals and i relize so many are happy and yet so many are sad. i wish i could make everyone happy but i cant. i miss so many people that i know prob dont miss me and thats ok. doesnt bother me much lol. ive gotten over alot of things. and ive learned not to expect so much out of life and certain situations.
well i guess thats it right now. im out...peace :)
WORK:
work sucks sometimes. im goin to put my 2 weeks notice in soon. bc all the awesome people there are leavin and then ill b there wit ms. tracie and i hate her wit a passion. but other then that i make bout 200 and somethin a week so its nice. but im tired of workin in the heat all day. i lose to much weight workin there. was 106 or more now im 100 its poopy. brandy doesnt work there anymore so i have no there to lunch wit anymore lol.
FAMILY:
my family has fuckin lost their minds. i fuckin crack pot aunt is takin my 2 lil cousins faith and crystal around my fuckin child rapist grandfather(moms side) and its so fuckin stupid she says she does it for money but she never leaves them alone wit her. but yet still y woudl u take ur 2 lil kids that u love around someone like that when he raped u and ur neice i dont get it. she is stupid to many damn drugs fucked up her brain. my cousin liz saw her and my grandfather at her job where she hostess and lost it. she was there wit only one of her kids crystal fell off her bunk bed and fratured(sp?) her skull and my fuckin aunt is out eatin instead of stayin at the hospital wit her child. my aunt is a fuckin bitch. she is so stupid. she kids are raped and scared for life and she cant comprehend it. i dont understand it. my aunt marie and danny are losin there minds. my aunt bb and my mom barly talk bc they both hold grudes over old shit. my uncle from germany is comin to tampa on the 12tha dn 13th and i must call off work again and go. im scared for him to come here and see how fucked our family has gotten over the years. i love my family but they alll need some serious fuckin therepy(sp?).
FRIENDS:
brandy is leavin me soon to go to aubrun :( im goin to b alone here. i will not have friends im so sad. she is like my bestest friend. she has been there wit me through alot and i have been there for her in return. we both have been through alot and im never goin to stop bein there for her. but it still sucks that she is leavin. bc i dont know who i will hang out wit. ill prob b at home lol.
i ran into a bunch of old friends at Atlantis in mobile. that was interestin totally reminded me of homecomin along time ago. dancin wit CHAS, ben, tj, cliff, and eric. was totally fun and i want to do it again soon. i missed those boys they mad life fun. im supposed to hang out wit chas sometime. im also supposed to hang out wit lauren. but we never can get together bc it gets screwd up blah. terrel is my new clubbin parnter though. he is fuckin awesome.
MYSELF:
lets see as for myself. ive lost weight and grow a few inches lol. i painted my room and went through old pictures and notes and letters while i cleaned out my room. it was totally awesome readin some of that stuff but also sad bc u think geezz what happened. ive gone to japan this summer to see katie graduate. it was the koolest thing ever to do. i have tons of pics and shit that i collected while i was there. i missed katie. its funny she has grown up so much. and she is happy and im so happy for her. she will b movin here soon. but she will b livin in Virgina to go to college. i will defintaly b visitin her. im gettin a tattoo on my ankle soon. its a rose and a cross and it has chelsea intials in it. i drew it myself. i dont care what anyone says bout her intials bein there im goin to have there. i know me and chelsea werent that close when it happened. but i still loved and cared bout her. i really wish me and her and stayed friends i think bout that alot and im like damn im stupid. i hate myself alot of the time. but i guess life goes on to a certain extent. i read everyones journals and i relize so many are happy and yet so many are sad. i wish i could make everyone happy but i cant. i miss so many people that i know prob dont miss me and thats ok. doesnt bother me much lol. ive gotten over alot of things. and ive learned not to expect so much out of life and certain situations.
well i guess thats it right now. im out...peace :)