Recap
Well, I have mixed emotions about how things went. It's not like anything went bad, but let me explain.
I got to the hall and immediately saw Erin. I got such a warm fuzzy feeling as soon as I saw her. Anyway, she asked the obligatory "how are you" and stuff. Then she had me write my name on a tag and told me the instructions about serving the people. Y'know, white meat or dark meat, decaf or regular, etc. After that I met some of the other helpers and people in charge. Everyone was so nice. Throughout the time I'd run into Erin here and there and each time she'd say "how are you, Chillie?" After the second time I must've had a funny look because she said "it's just what I say. Natural reaction I guess. You can just ignore it." I just laughed at her cuteness.
Later on, towards the end I got a chance to eat, so I sat down and a couple minutes later she came over joking that the mini pumpkins and fake corn cobs on the table were part of my dinner courtesy of her.
Then she sat down next to me, which was kinda embarrassing for me beecause I don't like eating and talking at the same time, but for her, I'd do anything to spend some time with her. We talked about what I've been doing, what she's been doing, her sister who I knew. Then when we were talking about how I teach a class at our church she mentioned that she would like to start a class for young adults that would focus on the letters of Paul in the New Testament. For those of you who aren't Catholic, that's the stuff that one of the early leaders of the church wrote to the different places who were spreading Christianity. It's basically the early history of the church. Anyway, being that my dream is to have a girlfriend who is seriously Catholic who I also happen to be attracted to, I was just thinking how incredibly awesome she is. I meant to tell her that I would help her with it if she ever gets it started, but then somebody called her over, ending my opportunity to converse with her.
So I just finished my dinner while I talked to another friend of hers. Then I waited a few minutes since I thought I was taking her back to her house. But she told me that the person who took her there actually stayed the whole time, so she would go home with her. I was disappointed, but at the same time relieved because I knew it would be awkward in the car with my mom and grandpa. My dad ended up not coming because he was afraid of there being praying and he's an athiest. Phooey on him. But I knew without him it would be so quiet because my mom and grandpa don't say much and there would be no music on because grandpa doesn't like it. But I had to get something in to Erin to make sure that it wouldn't just be "okay bye". So I told her to contact me if she ever has anything else I can help with. She said that since she has my e-mail address there will definitely be communication, whatever that means. I just said okay and see you later and that was it. I was so disappointed that I never even made any physical contact with her other than when she ran into the back of my foot one time. No hug or handshake. :-(
I would ask her out to lunch or dinner or something, but I got the feeling like if we had talked much more we would've run out of things to say. That's my biggest fear. I know it probably seems like I'm disinterested when I'm not saying much, which is so far from the truth. I just don't know what to do. *sigh* But, for today I'm trying to just remember every second I saw her and to enjoy it because I am 99.9% sure she is the closest to my soul-mate as exists.
I got to the hall and immediately saw Erin. I got such a warm fuzzy feeling as soon as I saw her. Anyway, she asked the obligatory "how are you" and stuff. Then she had me write my name on a tag and told me the instructions about serving the people. Y'know, white meat or dark meat, decaf or regular, etc. After that I met some of the other helpers and people in charge. Everyone was so nice. Throughout the time I'd run into Erin here and there and each time she'd say "how are you, Chillie?" After the second time I must've had a funny look because she said "it's just what I say. Natural reaction I guess. You can just ignore it." I just laughed at her cuteness.
Later on, towards the end I got a chance to eat, so I sat down and a couple minutes later she came over joking that the mini pumpkins and fake corn cobs on the table were part of my dinner courtesy of her.
Then she sat down next to me, which was kinda embarrassing for me beecause I don't like eating and talking at the same time, but for her, I'd do anything to spend some time with her. We talked about what I've been doing, what she's been doing, her sister who I knew. Then when we were talking about how I teach a class at our church she mentioned that she would like to start a class for young adults that would focus on the letters of Paul in the New Testament. For those of you who aren't Catholic, that's the stuff that one of the early leaders of the church wrote to the different places who were spreading Christianity. It's basically the early history of the church. Anyway, being that my dream is to have a girlfriend who is seriously Catholic who I also happen to be attracted to, I was just thinking how incredibly awesome she is. I meant to tell her that I would help her with it if she ever gets it started, but then somebody called her over, ending my opportunity to converse with her.
So I just finished my dinner while I talked to another friend of hers. Then I waited a few minutes since I thought I was taking her back to her house. But she told me that the person who took her there actually stayed the whole time, so she would go home with her. I was disappointed, but at the same time relieved because I knew it would be awkward in the car with my mom and grandpa. My dad ended up not coming because he was afraid of there being praying and he's an athiest. Phooey on him. But I knew without him it would be so quiet because my mom and grandpa don't say much and there would be no music on because grandpa doesn't like it. But I had to get something in to Erin to make sure that it wouldn't just be "okay bye". So I told her to contact me if she ever has anything else I can help with. She said that since she has my e-mail address there will definitely be communication, whatever that means. I just said okay and see you later and that was it. I was so disappointed that I never even made any physical contact with her other than when she ran into the back of my foot one time. No hug or handshake. :-(
I would ask her out to lunch or dinner or something, but I got the feeling like if we had talked much more we would've run out of things to say. That's my biggest fear. I know it probably seems like I'm disinterested when I'm not saying much, which is so far from the truth. I just don't know what to do. *sigh* But, for today I'm trying to just remember every second I saw her and to enjoy it because I am 99.9% sure she is the closest to my soul-mate as exists.