you were wrong when you said everythings gonna be alright

[chillerthanmost]

i hate knowing when a friendship is going nowhere but still pushing for it. the weight of words. liars. when people put me in jeopardy because of their irresponsibility &lack of care &fucking plain laziness. constant screaming &bitching &arguing over stupid shit. overly anxious people. people who want to be rescued. when my friends just can't get it together &then somehow i'm expected to help them out &pick up the pieces just because i have money. oh &then when i say that i can't (because i honestly just don't fucking want to anymore since i've done it so many times before &obviously you don't fucking learn from your mistakes,) i get screamed at &hung up on like i'm actually obligated now. just because you can't get your shit together doesn't mean you have to ruin my life, because you really are. i hate when my friends think i'm sketchy since i don't tell my business to just anyone because no one can shut their mouth. not being able to let go. losing the flame. being forgotten. when a friend feels more like a puppy that i have to take care of &less like a friend. people who won't help other people. when people don't appreciate shit. when friendships end badly but you still fucking miss that person. people who won't forgive or apologize.

south florida, i'll be home tonight.