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This is kinda pissing me off. Well, more than kind of, it's really pissing me off. I can't write a damn thing, and I can't find a single way to express the second half of the problem, that I was pissed off before I couldn't find any words to describe it. You ever had one of those nagging things in your life, the kinds of things that everything else seems to be going great, just absolutely great, except for that one little comment you wished you hadn't heard or didn't have to hear every time the same touchy subject came up? Yeah, it's really great, let me tell you. It sucks that for how happy I should be, I still find myself held down by the tiny hindrances that I thought I'd conquered already. I guess this is one of those humiliating nights where I'm supposed to gather that I have less figured out than I thought I did. And I guess it's also fitting that it should happen now. After all, sweeping happiness can only last so long until a curing dose of pessimism blanks it from perception and returns us to our natural state of misery. Our flaws are innate, after all, so why is this so surprising? I should be used to it. Maybe I didn't want to hear those words; damn me for listening and damn me for fooling myself once more. But not for caring.