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1. I'm trying to get over my fear, 'cause I really want to tell you. No, I really just want to talk to you. Telling you can come late in the game. But talking to you needs to happen soon, because it's not worth it to not talk. Not when I'm wanting this so badly. I want to feel that good. Like, the end of Love, Actually or in the middle of some random family video. I want to feel that good, but I really want you to feel that good. Because I'm selfish, I want you to feel that good because of me. Like I have one fucking good quality about me or something. Something that maybe other people can see, but something that only you can really feel. And I want you to feel it so good and hard. I deserve it, you deserve it.
2. Every sense you can sense about me right now is horrible. Smelling me in the same white muscle tee, Wednesday's deodorant remnants. You could scratch off a layer of plaque from whichever tooth is your favorite. Hear my empty stomach growling, and fuck, any part of me would taste bad at this point. Seeing me is just obvious. Obviously not good.
It's really strange that I'll go and fix all of this in an hour or so, but then I'll wake up in a day or two in the same condition. I'm days away from not fixing it. Let me be.
3. You already know.
1. to you
2. to everyone
3. to me
2. Every sense you can sense about me right now is horrible. Smelling me in the same white muscle tee, Wednesday's deodorant remnants. You could scratch off a layer of plaque from whichever tooth is your favorite. Hear my empty stomach growling, and fuck, any part of me would taste bad at this point. Seeing me is just obvious. Obviously not good.
It's really strange that I'll go and fix all of this in an hour or so, but then I'll wake up in a day or two in the same condition. I'm days away from not fixing it. Let me be.
3. You already know.
1. to you
2. to everyone
3. to me