31. accidental video, time stamped 10:30 PM
[the semi-darkness does not hide shinji curled into a ball on his bed. does not hide the SDAT curled in a fist and held onto like a life line. does not hide the state of disrepair of his room.
does not hide his darkened, empty eyes staring at nothing.
his free hand flexes once of its own accord. lifting the arm as if it were made of lead, he holds it up to the light from the city coming through his window. it takes as much effort to lower it, remove his earbuds, sit up, and shuffle out. the sound of running water drifts from another room for nearly fifteen minutes before he returns to lay in his original position.
he repeats the process an hour later.
again.
again.
again.
what little light there is suggests that his hands are turning a nasty shade of raw red from so much washing.
he is in the process of getting up again when the feed finally runs out.]
does not hide his darkened, empty eyes staring at nothing.
his free hand flexes once of its own accord. lifting the arm as if it were made of lead, he holds it up to the light from the city coming through his window. it takes as much effort to lower it, remove his earbuds, sit up, and shuffle out. the sound of running water drifts from another room for nearly fifteen minutes before he returns to lay in his original position.
he repeats the process an hour later.
again.
again.
again.
what little light there is suggests that his hands are turning a nasty shade of raw red from so much washing.
he is in the process of getting up again when the feed finally runs out.]