Pathetic

[childofshadowsx]

I guess I got my hopes up on us getting back together. I mean, everytime we were about to hang out, I made sure my makeup was good, I smelled pretty, my breath was fresh and I looked good in general. I thought maybe it was a good way to make him realize that he would miss me. Kind of like the same way I tried to make him jealous when I said that kid was hot. I guess it back fired on me. I guess I really am not that pretty as he said I was let alone I guess everytime he said i was beautiful was a out right lie too. I can't even look in the mirror anymore. I feel sick to my stomach when I do. I mean that's what happened last night. When I left I had to hold my breath to keep me from fucking puking all over the place. It's weird how something so "pure" can make you sick.

Sometimes I wish I could overdose on my pills….but then again I would probably just get sick. I mean c’mon, and overdose on acne pills? I would get laughed at my funeral. Some girl got so depressed that she overdosed on acne prevention pills…man how pathetic was she?