After one year...
::removes the dust::
Its been awhile hasn't it? And fitting that I write on this day. I look back at the year that was. Starting this day last year. I was uncertain about a lot of things, and I was also very sad.
I post today as a reflection. Lots has happened in a year. Let's recap.
A year ago today a relationship ended, leaving me with only questions that still aren't answered. I will never get those answers. Time and experience have taught me this. I moved back in with my parents for the summer, and tried to re-coop my life in time to get myself ready for Stony Brook in the fall.
11 months ago - I started talking to an old friend again, and decided to finally meet him. His name is Mike Leona.
10 months ago - I started going to weekly meetings with Mike Leona, and another Mike. Mike Erickson. We would hang out at Jillians in farmingdale weekly. I had a lot of fun
9 months ago - I move into the dorms at stonybrook, I get a taste of being on my own, and I start SBU.
8 months ago - I met all my current friends at Octoberfest. I start regular visits to the MSRC. I also start to develop bond for Mike E who I know affectionately call Chibi. He calls me Squeaks.
7 months ago - I try to help Mike E with Quals, also Shaun and Melissa. I have my own exams and such to prepare for.
6 months ago - Christmas time, and my feelings for Chibi were very strong, but I didn't think he would return those feelings.
5 months ago - It was after christmas where I went up to KGFL for the first time with Shaun and Tracey, and it was then when Chibi confessed his feelings for me, and we started going out on the seventh.
4 months ago - I started a new semester. Valentines day.
3 months ago - I went out on St Paddy's day.
2 months ago - April was pretty boring.
1 month ago - I was preparing for KMWN trip.
Today - I reflect.
So in my year its not like I haven't thought of him. That would be a silly thing to say. I will say that I am upset about one thing.
For the longest time I apologized to Meg and Oliver, because they don't see Ron at all anymore. I always use to think its my fault, but I no longer think that way. If he can't grow up and be in the same room as me when Meg and Oliver and I are hanging out, thats his loss not mine. It use to upset me. I figured that getting upset about something that I had no control over was pointless. Every now and then he comes to mind. I hear that phrase that we could be friends when he had enough time to heal. Well its been a year, and other than getting some stuff back I have had no contact. Its better that way. I still stand by my statement. If he truely wants to be my friend he knows how to find me, but I won't hold my breath.
I am in a better place now. I love it here in Port Jeff. I love going to school. I can't wait to graduate. I have so many oppurtunities waiting for me. All I need to do is reach out and grab them.
I love my new found friends, and everyone else who supported me.
But I won't forget the person who put me on this path. I am still grateful for that.
So they say people come into your life for a reason.
I quote from wicked:
I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason bringing something we must learn and we are lead to those who help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return.
Maybe that was his reason.
Whatever the case may be; its in the past.
Elphaba
Its been awhile hasn't it? And fitting that I write on this day. I look back at the year that was. Starting this day last year. I was uncertain about a lot of things, and I was also very sad.
I post today as a reflection. Lots has happened in a year. Let's recap.
A year ago today a relationship ended, leaving me with only questions that still aren't answered. I will never get those answers. Time and experience have taught me this. I moved back in with my parents for the summer, and tried to re-coop my life in time to get myself ready for Stony Brook in the fall.
11 months ago - I started talking to an old friend again, and decided to finally meet him. His name is Mike Leona.
10 months ago - I started going to weekly meetings with Mike Leona, and another Mike. Mike Erickson. We would hang out at Jillians in farmingdale weekly. I had a lot of fun
9 months ago - I move into the dorms at stonybrook, I get a taste of being on my own, and I start SBU.
8 months ago - I met all my current friends at Octoberfest. I start regular visits to the MSRC. I also start to develop bond for Mike E who I know affectionately call Chibi. He calls me Squeaks.
7 months ago - I try to help Mike E with Quals, also Shaun and Melissa. I have my own exams and such to prepare for.
6 months ago - Christmas time, and my feelings for Chibi were very strong, but I didn't think he would return those feelings.
5 months ago - It was after christmas where I went up to KGFL for the first time with Shaun and Tracey, and it was then when Chibi confessed his feelings for me, and we started going out on the seventh.
4 months ago - I started a new semester. Valentines day.
3 months ago - I went out on St Paddy's day.
2 months ago - April was pretty boring.
1 month ago - I was preparing for KMWN trip.
Today - I reflect.
So in my year its not like I haven't thought of him. That would be a silly thing to say. I will say that I am upset about one thing.
For the longest time I apologized to Meg and Oliver, because they don't see Ron at all anymore. I always use to think its my fault, but I no longer think that way. If he can't grow up and be in the same room as me when Meg and Oliver and I are hanging out, thats his loss not mine. It use to upset me. I figured that getting upset about something that I had no control over was pointless. Every now and then he comes to mind. I hear that phrase that we could be friends when he had enough time to heal. Well its been a year, and other than getting some stuff back I have had no contact. Its better that way. I still stand by my statement. If he truely wants to be my friend he knows how to find me, but I won't hold my breath.
I am in a better place now. I love it here in Port Jeff. I love going to school. I can't wait to graduate. I have so many oppurtunities waiting for me. All I need to do is reach out and grab them.
I love my new found friends, and everyone else who supported me.
But I won't forget the person who put me on this path. I am still grateful for that.
So they say people come into your life for a reason.
I quote from wicked:
I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason bringing something we must learn and we are lead to those who help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return.
Maybe that was his reason.
Whatever the case may be; its in the past.
Elphaba