*Induces vomiting*
So, I'm bored, procrastinating, slightly hungry (except I think that's mostly mental), slightly depressed, and angry at life. So here I go vomiting out words on a digital page about nothing except the same old blather of how much life bothers me. Here's something I just said... yes, I'm quoting myself! *Gasp* "Life is a quest to find something that you know doesn't exist... but you have to look anyway." And it is for me. Some people, I suppose, have an idea of what they're looking for. I don't. I mean, I have a general idea... like love, success, happiness. But that's bullshit, because who isn't looking for that? The crazies, that's who. I'm sure I shouldn't even be thinking of dating yet, but I still want to. I don't want to be stuck thinking about Nessa all the time, I want to be dating someone else, at least for a little while. But then again, I don't even know that Nessa and I won't be together this summer and then split up again before I leave or what. I don't know what's going on with that. So, basically, in the short run, I want to be dating someone. I don't have anyone to date. Most of the girls I like here are in my section, and they probably don't like me, and even if they did, that could make things awkward. Plus if I misinterpret a signal, like I'm sure I do all the time, I could really make things awkward. Plus, I've never dated anyone here, so I kinda feel like it's a barrier I need to break. Like... I don't know, I just feel dumb. I just want to be doing something other than thinking about Nessa. Cause I feel like a stalker, or like some kind of attached freak. Anyway, I'm done I guess. It's cold. I kinda want McDonald's, but it's cold outside, and I'm not sure I'm really that hungry. While I'm home over break, if it's not too cold, I want to climb Wildcat Mountain down by my Grandpa's old house. So I'm hoping there's some nice warm weather out there. K, I'm done.